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maritsa88
maritsa88 Posts: 62 Member
in Motivation and Support
Yesterday i went for shopping and really was a nightmare. I had a long time to feel this horrible. I went for shopping with my bf and i didn't find anything that i like except from shoes (i'm a shoe maniac). Well and i saw myself in a mirror. The TruTh: I got scared so much with myself that i would be pleased if there was a veil to cover me all over. I got out of the shop said noth to him. I had a long time to feel this way,i saw myself so big and i felt tragic. I really felt pitty about myself, All this time i was avoiding mirrors and there it was all over me. I felt myself equal to a tone. Horrible experience. I wanted so much to hide me somewhere maybe in the back of my closet and never get out of there. Can anyone be chic being like this? We are fat, i'm fat i can admit it.And its cruel saying something like that. I couldn't and wonder is the image that is hurting the most or the health? What really leads us to lose the other self that we all carry?
Personally is the image that scares me the most not my health that is in a very bad shape. I can live with health problems and i feel that i would never been skinny not even my disinterment. That's the truth and that what mirror always shows.

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  • lovelygirls
    lovelygirls Posts: 60
    Oh Honey! Don't be so hard on yourself! I am sure everyone on here has had mirror moments or photographic evidence moments that hit them hard, I know I have! But you are on here and trying to make a change. Who cares if the mirror is the motivation rather than your health....who doesn't want to look good on the outside? No one! Stick at it, you will get there. Sending you a *hug*
  • maritsa88
    maritsa88 Posts: 62 Member
    OH how nice of you! MFP its a nice world full of people with same goals but what happens when you go outside? shouldn't i be so strict with myself?but i let this happens. and before i start to go down on my lbs i felt good and now here we go again. stay stuck on a programme. who knows where it leads!? Damn you mirror...
  • Lyerin
    Lyerin Posts: 818 Member
    We all have times like that. I went shopping at like 35+ pounds lost and was almost in tears at how awful I felt I (still) looked.

    I went shopping again recently at 40+ pounds lost (so not that much more) and felt much, much better about having made so much progress. Sometimes it's just the way it hits you at a particular moment.

    If you keep telling yourself that you feel good and are making positive changes, you will eventually believe it.
  • JessG11
    JessG11 Posts: 345 Member
    I had the same experience not too long ago at my doctor's office. I was sitting in a chair waiting for my dr and there was a full size mirror to the side of me. I actually avoid mirrors but I took the time to look at myself. I looked to see how even when I sucked in my stomach, there was not much difference. I noticed how I don't sit up straight and I looked frumpy....I realized how small my arms look sticking out of my large, rounded stomach.

    But I didn't get upset. I did think to myself "ugh" but I also told myself as I stared in the mirror: remember this. Remember the way you look. Remember how unhealthy it is to be overweight. And NEVER be like this again.

    I didn't let it get me down. I've allowed things like this to get me down for too long and use them as an excuse to make myself feel better with eating craptastic food. Instead I used it as motivation. And I will say, more than once, I've pictured myself in the mirror in my head when I wanted to skip a work out or eating crap food.

    Don't let it get you down. Look at yourself and know that you are doing what you need to do to get healthier. Use it.
  • maritsa88
    maritsa88 Posts: 62 Member
    First of all thank you for your messages!!!! Secondly, Jess i don't want to look and feel the same again at the mirror but i did. i 'm trying to forget it but i think the problem is that i do not have the patience to do it. i wish that this could be so easy. JUst a magic clap and i'll be thin. Only mirror showed the true me.it's to difficult to lose your other self...
  • JessG11
    JessG11 Posts: 345 Member
    I wish it was easy too!!!!! But I also know it won't always be so hard. We can do this!!! Stay focused on your goals. I take it day by day. At this point, that's all I can do.
  • greenmm25
    greenmm25 Posts: 175 Member
    Oh Honey! Don't be so hard on yourself! I am sure everyone on here has had mirror moments or photographic evidence moments that hit them hard, I know I have! But you are on here and trying to make a change. Who cares if the mirror is the motivation rather than your health....who doesn't want to look good on the outside? No one! Stick at it, you will get there. Sending you a *hug*
    ^this the photographic evidence is the worst for me! and the double chin i get sometimes! I just can't stand it sometimes and it just makes me wanna work harder. keep at it. You got this!

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