A new beginning

Hello! My name is Chrissy and i'm hoping this website can help me stay on track with my weight loss. Ever since me and the love of my life broke up (4 months ago), I have had a new outlook on life. I guess it's b/c I have had plenty of time to think. I had my heart shattered, this time it was different, b/c I had never loved anyone as much as I had loved him. I truly thought he was my soulmate. I began not to eat..I went for 3 days without eating until my mom forced me to eat..and even then it was just half a sandwhich. I realized that me and food don't really have a healthy relationship. When I was younger , I dealt with my parents being divorced, getting raped and my father having a stroke; all this by the time I was 13. I used to eat my problems away; consequently, now that i'm older, I starve myself when i'm faced with problems. As I was sitting down outside on my mom's porch, staring down at a piece of chicken, I realized that there has to be a in-between, a healthier way of my realtionship with food. I can't over eat and I can't starve myself. I need to change my habits, how I deal with my stress, with life and how I view myself as a person. I decided to not go on a diet; for one, they don't work. Eventually the weight will come back. What I need is a lifestyle change...change my habits so that I may lead a healthy life and keep the weight off. I eat wheat instead of white, drink water not soda, stay away from sugar and salty snacks. Let me tell you, its harder then it looks, but if I do it gradually, it gets easier and easier. What makes it hard is that my family doesn't support me, I get ridiculed and get called names...even my freinds don't support me..they also trying to lose weight, so when they see me do good, they get jealous and try to get me off course. I know that the path in front of me will be hard, but I am ready. I am focused on forgetting the past and planning for my new life in the future, I just have to take each day as it comes