Temptations

shellsies93
shellsies93 Posts: 88
in Motivation and Support
Today, I went to a baby shower and of course there is amazing food and home made sweets. So 20 people are sitting in a small room with plates full of amazing smelling food. This was already hard enough, I made sure I would not have anything, even when people were offering it me and telling me just how good this food was. While gifts were being opened, my mom's cousin comes around with platters full of cupcakes. She stops in front of me and asks me to take one. I, for some reason, am embarrassed to say that i'm trying to lose weight, because my moms other cousin's wife (who has always been tiny) is sitting right next to us and also i'm afraid if I fail, people will just make fun of me. Somehow, I have yet to figure out how, I was able to not take one. When everyone was eating them and saying how awesome and yummy they were, I honestly just wanted to run away and cry. It's like I feel fat if I take one and I feel fat if I don't, because i'm the only one who didn't have one.

My mom, who has lost 100 pounds, decided that since she ate cupcakes, she already blew it and on our way home, she bought 2 huge boxes of chocolate chip and red velvet cookies. She starts eating them while she's driving, and I can just smell them. they are literally sitting right next to me. It was so hard to not just take one. My mom didn't want to tell my dad what she had done, so where did she decide to put them so he wouldn't find them? MY ROOM!! so they are now staring at me in my closet.

I'm not always the most emotionally stable person, but I really just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I try so hard to stay positive, but it's moments like these were it's really hard.

If you read this, thank you <3 I just needed to vent

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  • KisforKriss
    KisforKriss Posts: 71
    You need to start being more confident in your choice to be healthy. You shouldn't be embarrassed. I would of said "They look amazing, but i am gonna be a good girl today" and feel empowered i made a healthier choice.
  • just4nessa
    just4nessa Posts: 459 Member
    You need to start being more confident in your choice to be healthy. You shouldn't be embarrassed. I would of said "They look amazing, but i am gonna be a good girl today" and feel empowered i made a healthier choice.

    Absolutely this^ Now take those cookies out of your closet and put them on your mom's nightstand!
  • touchofred
    touchofred Posts: 28 Member
    Awe what a rough day. :( It will get better.. keep your chin up :)
  • Hoponopono
    Hoponopono Posts: 31 Member
    I am so incredibly proud of you...you made the choice to take care of YOU. I definitely understand that feeling wrong either way and always feeling judged if you eat or not...but you took care of you; and that is monumental. The best part about this life is that it is a journey that is unique to each person...there was no right or wrong decision here...but you chose to honor the process you are going through. Coming here and writing about it can be very cathartic and also takes a lot of courage. Celebrate the fact that you stayed present in the moment, despite the tremendous amount of discomfort and conflicting emotions...you made the choice to stay present and to do what is right for you. Life isn't about perfection...it is messy and conflicting...full of tough decisions...you are showing such incredible grace with the decisions you are making...and each one makes you stronger. Bravo! <3
  • conniemaxwell5
    conniemaxwell5 Posts: 943 Member
    1) There's nothing wrong with having a cupcake at a party if you want one. At the worst it might put you even with your calories burned for the day and you won't be at a deficit. If you want / need to compensate for it, take an hour long brisk walk later in the day or tomorrow. Even simpler, just add 10 minutes of exercise every day this week to whatever you're already doing.
    2) If you really don't want a cupcake or other treat, don't be embarrassed to say so.
    3) Have a frank conversation with your mom and tell her the same thing.
    4) Either tell your mom you don't want those chocolates in your room or just throw them away.

    Losing weight doesn't have to be about deprivation. It's about counting calories and over time being at a deficit. The amount of deficit determines the rate of weight loss (3500 calories = 1 pound of fat, so an average daily deficit of 500 calories = 1 lb of weight loss a week). An occasional treat isn't going to set you back, it may just slow you down a little (very little).
  • TinGirl314
    TinGirl314 Posts: 430 Member
    Ohmygoodness...
    If those cookies are bothering you being in your room then throw them out!
    That is not a healthy behavior. Is your mother worried your father will be angry?

    And you know every once in a while cheating is ok, so try not to be so hard on yourself.
    However, you now know that you do have the inner strength to decline temptations.
    Think about how amazing that accomplishment is and ride a wave of pride!

    But seriously I'd throw those darn cookies out my window.
  • ploppersdf1
    ploppersdf1 Posts: 89 Member
    ok, i TOTALLY get this. today my husband decided to go to taco bell, my FAVORITE fast food place, and i had to say no. and the whole way home i'm smelling the awesome cheese and fatty goodness and i wanted to eat it SOOO bad. but i didn't and it didn't feel good at all, because i wanted it and i know that i couldn't have it. BUT you should count this as a victory because you were able to say no to something that wasn't good for your diet. and when you are in a better mood you will look back it and be happy that you didn't take it. and to the cookies your mom is making you hold on to, i would do just what just4nessa said. if your mom feels embarrassed about the cookies make her own up to it. it's not fair to make you feel terrible just because she doesn't want to own up to cheating. and you should also remember, that should you have taken the cup cake, it is NOT the end of the world. our bodies are made to change to fluxuate the amount of calories we eat. if you denied yourself treats every single day, you would break down. so allow yourself a cup cake once in a while. keep your head up hun!
  • mou_254
    mou_254 Posts: 153 Member
    it ws a tough day but u did great!! hang in there! :)

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