restrictive to carefree.. help?

Ok so for 1 year I was in a relationship with somebody who I told at the beginning of my relationship I didn't like certain foods (I was dieting and was easier to say than "no thanks I'm dieting") . So eventually we moved in together which meant I couldn't eat these foods because he thought I didn't like them, well I took my fitness and diet to really restrictive levels and I was beginning to have abs, verging on the path of too thin. Then we broke up. I moved out back to my grandparents and now I can't stop eating all these foods I had restricted out my diet. I however personally enjoy the healthy foods more but I have no control, once I have a bite I find myself binging on over 3000 calories a time of these foods and then physically being sick.

I have gained 7lb in 5 1/2 weeks. Ok maybe the 7lb weight gain was needed as I was underweight, but now I am afraid that I am going to keep on binging and gaining.
The day after a binge I try my best to drink lots of water and eat healthy but give it a day and I'm binging again. I have wrote down my calories in weekly form since the 1st of June and the cycle seems to be 2 days binge then one day clean eating and then a day which is semi ok then another full on 2 day binge, its a vicious cycle.
How do I break out of this?
I also don't workout anymore due to always feeling sick and heavy from binging. So I have lost all muscle tone and I am completely lose and bloated.

Has anyone else experienced this?? :flowerforyou: