Throw out the scale!

Hi, I too have a history of ED and 2 weeks ago I made my husband remove the scales from the house. I had lost 5 kg since the beginning of the year and was obsessed all over again with what I was putting in my mouth and the number on the scales. My history of ED started at 17 years of age (I am now 37). I am 5ft 3 and have a BMI of 19-20. I have had a period of around 15 years where I was ED free (although it still sat in the back of my mind daily I had managed to control it). I recovered from my ED initially (15 years ago) by removing the scales and stopped fixating on the number I seen. So when I felt myself heading down that track a couple of weeks ago, I once again made the decision to remove the scales. I have had times over the last few weeks where I wonder what I weigh and it has taken all my strength not to go out in the shed and search for the scales, but I have kept up with exercise (and made this my goal) I have increased my calories to maintenance (so now I don't feel continuously hungry) and generally feel comfortable with myself once again. I have a bit of a perfectionist personality (possibly with a bit of self diagnosed OCD thrown in aswell lol) so obsessing over the scales is definitely not for me anymore. I don't measure either but that would be a better form of measurement than the scales. The scales are not kind with fluid retention etc and can depress you in a matter of seconds! I recommend ditching the scales, feeling healthy, eating well and exercising are my key performance indicators now. I have to work hard every day to get the ED thoughts out of my head, I don't think it truly ever goes away but it is manageable and steps such as removing the scales has made life a little more pleasant. There are other ways to measure success. All the best.