Need support

I'm Cliff. I'm also not new to this site, but now I find I need it more than ever.

Three years ago, I signed up for MFP and had great success. I lost 50 pounds and was in the best shape of my life since I was 18 years old. I hiked for miles, ran 10 K events, mountain biked and was just out and about taking advantage of life.

Then it all came crashing down. My ex-wife lost her job. Finance came crashing down. I became depressed. I stopped working out. I began eating. I gained weight. I divorced. I lost my job. I lost my house. I lost everything.

In short, I gained back my 50 pounds and more. I went from 180 pounds to 280. I now struggle to walk up a flight of stairs. I barely can even walk without a sweat.

This needs to change. I am now in a place where I need to start thinking about myself and my kids. I need to lose weight again. I need to be healthy. I need to get into the gym and fight depression through exercise and eating healthy. But I know I can't do it alone. I didn't do it alone last time.

So, I'm searching for a support network.

About me: I'm big into the outdoors. Camping, hiking... I did mountain bike, but I've given that up. I'm a 38 year old man with two kids - 6 year old girl and 3 year old son. I'm not looking for the same things I did last go around. Last time, I got addicted to the scale and ended up at 180. I look back on pictures of me and the fact is I looked like a skeleton. This time around, I want to cut fat, but at the same time, I also want to pack on a little more muscle than I did before.

Anyway, that's me in a nutshell.