Any other binge/purge people trying to recover?

I know exactly how you feel and exactly what you're going through, as far as the disordered eating is concerned.
My goodness, all the setbacks I have had, all the times I've eaten food only to panic at feeling full, at gaining anything from those calories, sending me straight for a bathroom...

It's pretty bad. It's pretty sad. And I don't want to be this way forever.

It's usually a bad mood or anything that will make me focus on my body image (and negatively at that) that will send me into a spiral for a few days. And then I end up dehydrated, with low blood pressure, headaches, feeling like a mess. It takes a week or so to feel 'better' after that. It'll happen again, months down the road but it's still the same mess, the same process.

I wish you the best of luck and I hope we and everyone else experiencing this can get past it once and for all.

Title says it all really, I've been through a few different eating stages but I've got myself into a binge/purge cycle I eat a balanced diet, include treats, but something sets me off and I binge - then I feel bad, scared of getting fat, so I throw up. Now I'm empty so I have something small, something else.....too much, so I throw up again.....I hate this and I hate myself, if anyone is going through something similar please add so we can support eachother in recovery

I'm going to be blunt here. You don't need support for your bingeing and purging from others who do the same thing, you need to get to a doctor now and get yourself into a treatment program. The support comes once you have made that forward movement. It's very difficult to stop on your own. Online support might help but you need real-life help. If you have not already done harm to your body, it WILL happen soon unless you get help.

I'm lucky I didn't harm myself with behavior when I was in my late teens and early twenties, but it sure led to a lot of shame and self hatred. Thank God I found my way to recovery.

Please call your doctor.

edited for clarification.

Yes, I have had the same problem for several years, on and off. It started after I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was 16 and then forced to gain weight. When I stopped being monitored as closely after I'd gained enough weight, I tried to restrict again but ended up binging and then purging. Right now I'm in college and binge especially when I drink. I throw up very rarely now but instead exercise excessively to get rid of the calories. I'm sorry you're going through things like this too I think for me finding happiness in other areas of my life has been what's made this better the times it's been less severe. I tend to binge because I'm lonely and stressed, so dealing with those feelings other ways like with friends or activities can help. Best of luck, girl, I know it's tough.

Ahhh really sorry to hear you do this, Sounds like your in a circle and cant get out of it.

Maybe you should seek professional advice

Maybe personal things, relationships, work, men, confidence, life etc are setting these things off!

Good luck xx

You appear to have an eating disorder. You NEED to seek psychiatric help.

Not knowing what state you live in, your family situation, or your age, I can only give general advice. Do you have health insurance? Do you have a regular medical doctor you can go to see? You could start with him/her. Tell your doctor straight up what your situation is, and see if he/she can refer you to a proper mental health facility. Don't be too scared or ashamed to say anything... You may feel like you'll be judged, but coming out with your problem is the bravest thing you can do.

http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/

That is a link to the National Eating Disorder Association. It has information on support groups, treatment referrals, and all that jazz. It also has a helpline where somebody will walk you through finding treatment.

As said before, I can only give general information to you. I hope you (and some of the other posters) will consider getting help. Good luck.

This is the story of my life. I started at 13. I am getting professional help. I see my doctor every month and a therapist weekly but it doesn't help. I love the feeling of binging and then being completely empty. sad but true. I agree seeking help is good but it really helps to have friends to talk to who understand.