Viscious Cycle

Just keep logging you food. Close you diary if you don't want anyone else to know what you are eating, but log everything. Don't worry about restricting yourself for the first 3 weeks you are here. The only goal you should have when you get started is to log everything.

Weigh and/or measure you meals as closely as you can. If you don't try to restrict yourself, then you can't rebel against yourself.

Doing that one thing is PROVEN to help people reduce their body weight by 10% or more. Even if they did nothing else re; diet and exercise.

I hope you find success. Just take this one step for now. Once you feel like you are really getting the hang of logging, then you can start to mix things up with your foods. For now, just keep logging. What do you have to lose (beside the weight)?

What IS your eating plan? Could it be that you are not eating enough? 15lbs by Thanksgiving is a pretty aggressive goal. Maybe just try for a lb a week loss and eat a little more? And maybe save most of your calories to eat in the evenings when you are the hungriest? Have you set your macro targets and are you getting enough fiber? Maybe give this a read if you haven't read it yet.
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/1080242-a-guide-to-get-you-started-on-your-path-to-sexypants

One piece of advice that I might be able to give you is if you notice that you're getting super hungry around a certain time of day, is be aware of the foods around you. One thing that really got me was keeping too much junk food in the house. In my past experience, if I don't have like chips or something in my house, and I want them, I'm going to have to go get dressed and drive to the grocery store to pick up a bag, and most of the time, I can't be bothered. Also, when I was originally trying to cut back on the amount of junk foods I was eating, if I had to go to the grocery store, I would avoid going down those aisles. I know this might sound odd, but sometimes, getting it out of sight and out of mind completely for a week or two might make you have less cravings for foods.

However, if you're not too keen on cutting out certain foods entirely, see if you can do portion control. Like in the grocery stores, they usually sell those little 1 or 2 serving sized containers of ice cream, and those small/snack sized bags of chips, things like that. This way, you're not feeling like you're missing out, but at the same time, you're not going to be overindulging and slowing down progress. Also, it helps if you're one of those people that tend to eat til the container is (mostly) empty, because when you hit the bottom of the carton/bag, you've only eaten 1 or 2 servings, instead of 3-4+. Also, do you eat in front of the TV often? When you're eating while distracted, you tend not to notice what you're eating, and it takes a bit longer for your stomach to tell your brain to stop eating.

As far as feeling hungry goes, you might want to try increasing the proteins and complex carbs in your diet. Studies have shown that people eating the same amount of calories in eggs for breakfast as people eating bagels reported eating less later in the day. If you want to do something (at least temporarily) about your appetite which may have gotten used to huge meals, you might want to drink a glass or two of water before each meal to eat less during the meal. You can also take sips of water between bites to fill up your stomach a bit more and keep you from eating less.

It may help you to have one meal out of the week where you eat whatever you want, so that way you don't go crazy the rest of the week, worked for me.

While this book has its flaws, it gives incredible insight into why we really struggle against doing what we know we need to do ("resistance"). I think you may be surprised how helpful it is, it is for me right now. http://www.stevenpressfield.com/the-war-of-art/ I got the cheapest e-book version. Good luck!

Hi Sunshine. Without knowing what you are eating there are some things from scientific studies.
1. Fructose (in cane sugar, icecream, soft drinks cakes, candy) affects your appetite. Eat lots of fructose. You will be hungry.
2. Protein and fat are better than carbs (that's sugars, wheat, rice, potatoes) at making you feel satisfied.
These two things pretty much explain why the Atkins, Paleo, South Beach diets all work. For the first week / month / 3 months work. Then you goback to your old eating habits. And put on the weight you took off! Sound familiar?
So suggest you actually take time to read some books or stuff so this time this journey is permanent. When you are obese, some of the normal appetite hormones are actually not working right. So some things like leptin or insulin feedback loops are not working due to insulin & leptin intolerance.
So it will be a struggle but keep at it. MFP has lots of people who have made the journey. Do what sunset says & measure everything honestly. Knowing what you're eating gives a baseline.
Good luck. Keep strong.