Soul searching and advice needed please???

Truegoddess22
Truegoddess22 Posts: 94 Member
in Motivation and Support
Recently I've noticed some things about myself that I've never wanted to admit but I've finally found the courage to admit it so here it is:
I 've realized I'm not fat because I can't help it or due to my PCOS. I realized that I use my weight as a crutch. I'm always telling myself that the reason I'm single is because I'm fat and the reason that I don't have my dream job is because I'm fat when in reality I'm not unattractive at all, in fact I'm very attractive, I just have trust issues. The reason I don't have my dream job if because I don't feel confident enough to pursue it.

I use my weight to tell myself that I can't get up and exercise when its what I need to do to lose the weight. I binge eat when I'm frustrated, mad, stressed out etc. I get mad at myself for eating so much so then I eat even more. Sometimes I can eat and not even feel full so I just keep eating for no reason whatsoever.I've fallen into a pitiful cycle and I have no clue how to stop it.

I currently weigh 176.2 and since I'm only 5'2 that puts me in the obese catergory with my BMI.I keep losing my motivation. I'll get motivated and then after maybe 3 or 4 days lose the motivation and start eating out of control again and not caring but then looking in the mirror later and hating what I see.

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  • Tish
    Tish Posts: 34 Member
    Being honest with yourself is a huge break though don't you think? I have the same problem with beige eating, take today for example I ate a really nice breakfast which was 400cals,then about an hour later I ate a lot of choc and rubbish. Thankfully I logged all the food into MFP and realized I have not gone over my daily cals and all is not lost, I can still take control of the rest of the day and end the day feeling that even though I ate rubbish I stopped myself from ruining my progress so far. Thats all we can do we are human and we are going to have days where we eat too much or drink too much but just because that happens instead of letting it rollercoast out of control curb it back and take control again. You can and will lose the weight its just a matter of sticking it out till you find a way that works for you. Wishing you all the luck in the world and support too.

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