23, with lots to lose. Looking for supportive friends. :)

Hello Everyone,

My name is Kelsie. I'm 23 and I've dealt with weight issues literally my entire life. A few years ago, through myfitnesspal and exercise, I was down a total of almost 80 pounds from my highest weight. Since then, I met my now-husband, and my life went from focusing on one person, to focusing on two. My living situation changed, my employment situation changed, and before I knew it, I was steadily and surely gaining weight back. In NO way am I blaming any of that on my husband, I just lost focus of my personal goals as they changed into goals for him and I.

We just got married in September, and I'm sad to say I am almost back up to my starting weight. I had every intention of making the wedding my motivation to lose weight, but with stress and being so preoccupied with all the planning, I lost sight of my fitness goals, yet again. The wedding was absolutely beautiful and I couldn't be happier with that aspect of my life, but I am disappointed in myself for not making me a priority through it all.

It's been hitting me harder and harder lately that if I don't change my ways and get back on track, it won't be long before I pass up that weight I never thought I'd even come close to again. It's scary and it's heartbreaking to look at myself and see how far I let myself fall. I've always had insecurity issues and even when I was down to my lowest weight, I never really realized the huge accomplishments I had made. I would kill to be that size again, but instead, I'm back at square one.

Now that I'm married, I have both myself and my marriage to think about. I don't want my negative attitude to continue to impact my relationship with my husband. I don't want to have kids and have them grow up with the same poor attitudes and perceptions of themselves. I want to lose the weight and keep it off for myself and for my future, and I know that will require dedication and determination like never before.

I'm looking for friends who consistently log, who are positive motivators, and who are looking for the same from me. I want to get back to being committed to being healthy and happy, both physically AND emotionally, and I know that requires a good support system, and I definitely want to give that to others as well. My initial main goals are going to be back to daily logging and working out at Curves, with a mix of walking and Turbofire, depending on the day. I'm still figuring out what the best plan will be for me, but I have to realize that the time for excuses has come and gone. I have to do this for me. And I DESERVE to do this for me.

So if you're on a similar journey, or just looking for a new friend, please message me or add me. We can use all the support we can get Thanks!