Leaving MFP was a bad idea!

Thanks in advance if you are reading! I started typing out my story and I found I was rambling, so hopefully I this second attempt is coherent.

A bit about me: I am 5'3, 180 lbs. I have never been thin, always a little chunky, but was mostly in the healthy weight range for my height. I became sedentary at around age 21 which is when I could legally drink here in Pennsylvania, as well as the same age I got my "real" job, i.e. desk job. I was scarily close to 200 lbs when I first joined MFP in 2011 at the age of 28, under a different username. I got down to between 145-150 by the beginning of 2012 and just stopped logging. What can I say? Life got in the way and I wasn't completely unsatisfied with how I looked and felt. I maintained my weight for the most part, but now I am going through a divorce after separating from my husband, and am in a new relationship. For me and the bf, new relationship = cooking extravagant meals together, going out for drinks and dinner more often than either of us usually would, cuddling during the time we used to exercise (back before we started dating), you get the idea. And I have gained back up to 180 because of all this.

As cheesy as it sounds, I am feeling like this is a new start for me, even though weight-wise I am almost back to my heaviest weight ever. I am starting a new life and hopefully my bf will be in it for the long haul, but if not that's okay too; it happens. This is a strange opportunity for me to create any lifestyle I want and to start developing any habits I want. Yes I know I could have done that at any time, but not having to be concerned about anyone but myself for the first time ever is as good of a motivator as any. I feel this is the perfect time to cut down on the dinners and drinks and start slowly establishing the lifestyle I want for good. So I have created a new MFP account, with my new starting point and my new goals. Even down to the username.

I know that this is a TL;DR post, but I figure it's me introducing myself so hopefully that's okay. I have to admit that I previously only used the app on my phone, and didn't even know the forums existed, so I definitely missed out on the social aspect and potential support from other users the last time. Having said that, I would love to have friends for support this time around, so please feel free to add me. I plan to log in every day, or nearly every day, and I PROMISE I am usually not this wordy and boring. :flowerforyou: