An emotionally draining month.

AmberElaine84
AmberElaine84 Posts: 964 Member
edited September 22 in Chit-Chat
Just a vent to my fellow MFP friends. :) This has been SUCH a draining month for me!

First of all, one of my best friends just went completely crazy on me...for NO reason. Deleted me from facebook, refused to stop talking to me, or acknowledging my children. And my SON is her GODSON. She refused to respond to any of my heartfelt emails asking WHY she had done this to me and what I had done wrong. She told me that my emails were RIDICULOUS. WHO does that??? This is not the first time she's completely ignored me. You can only take so much from one person, and I can't do it anymore. The hard part is losing my other half. She was everything you want in a best friend. And I realize how fake she is more and more everyday. I wish I would have seen this sooner, I wouldn't have worn my heart on my sleeve.

My FAVORITE teacher from high school died 3 days ago. He was only 58 and he died suddenly from complications from pneumonia. He gave me the love for singing and music that I have today. We spent nearly everyday together for 4 years rehearsing for competitions, yelling at each other, and laughing with one another. He was just one of those teachers that everyone loved. Very upset about attending his wake and funeral. The whole ordeal has once again made me realize how short life is, and to hang on to the ones I love with all of my heart.

My son is turning ONE in less than a month. I am so happy that he is a happy, healthy little boy, but I am so sad that he is the last tiny newborn that I will nurse and rock to sleep. It's funny how you never know how fast the time is flying until it is gone! God has blessed me with three of THE MOST beautiful, happy children I have ever known.

Anyway, just a few things bugging me. I am not letting this effect my "maintenance mode" though. In fact, instead of reaching out to food, I have been RUNNING my anger/hurt out. At least a couple miles every day, and feel GREAT physically. Just drained emotionally.

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  • Beebee78
    Beebee78 Posts: 703
    I just wanted to send hugs and reassure you that things will get better xxx
  • lutzsher
    lutzsher Posts: 1,153 Member
    Life IS short, so you have no time for useless people. The only reason to have someone in your life is because they enhance it in some way, once you realize someone is only causing distress it is time to move on! If your friend comes around at some point it would probably be wise to be cautious and keep her at an arms length.
    The last of my 3 kids moved out on June 1st of this year, so Im a recent empty nester and can confirm that time flies! It seems like yesterday we were rocking them to sleep in our arms and now they are all in their 20's. Hopefully I will have a few years before the introduction of grandkids and the entire cycle starting again.
    It is funny how loss makes your reflect. Just part of the grieving process, so allow yourself to have all those emotions and ask for lots of extra hugs for a while.
    Best of luck to you!
  • lculian
    lculian Posts: 313 Member
    *hugs*

    It sounds like you are handling things beautifully. Don't let anyone or anyone's attitude tear you down. I'm so glad you have the happiness your children are sharing with you everyday. I feel the same way about mine:) Know that your"friend" (I personally don't think she deserves that title) has suffered a big loss. Friends who care about you are harder to come by as we all get busy with family, school and work. A good friendship should never be taken for granted. I'm sorry she took yours for granted. Keep smiling, and be proud of your achievements and your beautiful family. :heart:
  • AmberElaine84
    AmberElaine84 Posts: 964 Member
    Thanks you girls for the support, it was nice to get some of that out. :smile: Like I said, I am BEYOND blessed to have the TRUE friends I do have and my beautiful family. I know God doesn't give us any more than we can handle, but sometimes I am ready to stop and question Him!! As far as my "friend" situation goes, I just feel bad for HER. It's just trying to mend a broken heart that stinks. :frown:

    Oh yeah, and to top it all off? I dropped my cell phone in my son's bathwater yesterday. You don't realize how much you depend on those silly little things until you lose it!
  • danacriley
    danacriley Posts: 35
    I can only imagine your pain. You lost 2 best friends in one week and having that last baby grow up is hard. All those events force you to all of the sudden you see time flying right the heck out the window. I'm so glad you are channeling those feelings in a constructive way. Just try to breathe a little and be quiet if even for 5 minutes, and be hyper focused on the room and the stillness. As much as the passing of time will help to heal the wounds of your loss ultimately, trying to enjoy every second with your children and not looking ahead @ them growing up and leaving has helped me @ least to cope. Also, just let yourself be upset. You are stuck in the middle (what i think) of wanting time to hurry up (for healing) and slow down (to keep the babies small). It is tough and you should allow yourself to have the emotions so that they can pass ;)

    Good luck to you during this difficult time - and keep running girl!
  • sculley
    sculley Posts: 2,012 Member
    SOme people honestly are not happy with their lives and they will do anything to steal others joy. As for you losses...I am so sorry the only thing I could possibly say to you that I somewhat know how you felt. A year ago I had a stressful month of my life, I found out I was going to afghanistan so I had to make preparations for that a couple weeks later lost my dad out of the blue and then found out days later I had possible cervical cancer....

    If your religious just hold tight and find comfort in it :) I will pray for you you seem like a strong and sweet person
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