Starting P90x and Insanity Hybrid. . . Anyone interested?

Hey there!!! Sadly I used to be in pretty good shape! Ran marathoners, lifted daily etc. but alas a different job and home stresses added up and I gave up the gym :-((( bad bad idea!!! So now I sit here an embarrassed miserable much flabbier overweight me that I barely recognize in the mirror :-((( you know it's bad when the S.O. mentions ,"hey thought you were going to the gym again ?" And "I USED to love your butt" :-(((( so I decided I was mad and screw him, but then I realized I'm absolutely miserable and hate the way I look!!! None of my clothes fit *sigh* and I hate how I look in the mirror. Where did all this cellulite come from ??!!! Wellllllll, I've finally decided to take back my life. I'm TIRED of hating how I look and being miserable trying to find something to wear that I actually look decent it!! So here is my plan. . . Gonna b tough as I have been away from exercise for quite awhile (other than an occasional half hearted run or 20 min stint on the elliptical) but I am going to do a hybrid of P90x and insanity. I want to build muscle but also loose fat. I found a really good hybrid program online if anyone is interested in suffering through it with me! If not... I could just seriously use the encouragement! Did day 1 yesterday and I'm pretty sore. I'm obviously not able to do the whole videos just yet but I'm working at a pace that is hard but doable for me until I get stronger and fitter. So if anyone wants to join me I'd love the company!!! Let me know and I'll forward the hybrid plan. :-)))) wish me luck!!! I have about 40-50 pounds to shed. (Sad)