I not doing good this week!?!?

Just think "a moment on the lips, forever on the hips." And as far as workouts go if I absolutely hate something I will not stick with it. Pick something you enjoy like walking outside or Tae Bo if you like to kick some *kitten*!

It's sounds like you don't like the Insanity work out - perhaps find something that is more enjoyable and fun (no, not P90X, that sucks too, lol!) and did you tell your granny you are trying to lose? ask her to bring you veggies and fruit instead.

I totally understand the frustration. I have those moments when something seems to switch off and I can't be bothered finishing a workout and just want to crawl away and hide (with a stash of junk food).

I'm with tmarie on changing up the exercise. The last couple of days I was trying to do shred level 2 but some reason my brain just didn't want to complete it - so I just started doing random strength, cardio and ab exercises and before I knew it I had worked out longer than I would have doing Shred. Maybe it won't work out quite as effective but it made me feel good! Other one I sometimes do is just turn the music up and dance - the more ridiculous the better - e.g. crumping, booty-shaking, jumping around., the endorphins start to flow pretty quick which gives me a much better boost than flogging myself through a workout on a crappy feeling day.

Good luck I know you can get back to believing in you.

Giving yourself 4 months to lose 30lb? You should have started a while ago. If you try too fast you are very unlikely to succeed.

After 30 minutes of writing I deleted my post. Its just not worth it anymore.

This may fall into the category of "not being helpful" too but here goes:

When you are ready to lose the weight - you will. It's up to YOU to put in the work and build new habits that will help you stay on track through all the challenges that we all face in life.

Good luck. I wasn't ready until May 2012 at 54 years of age. Up until that point, I only "talked" about how I wanted to lose weight and how much I hated what I was doing to my body.

Hope you don't wait that long.

I don't always do good either.

I'm usually not one to dispense advice, but here's my two cents:

A - Set realistic goals for yourself. If you think you can't do insanity, then do lower impact exercise. I didn't think I could stick with a program like that, so I decided to do something different. Walk , maybe run if you get inspired. An hour brisk walk really does wonders for the sedentary. Realistic goals include losing X amount of weight in set time. You say you need to lose thirty by February? Would it be horrible if it's April? What if it's 25 instead? Need or Want? Smaller goals are alot easier to accomplish than bigger goals. I personally changed my weightloss goal from 1lb/week to 1/2 lb/week because I knew that now that the colder weather is here, I'd exercise less.

B - Look for little victories. Met your calories goal for the day? Be proud of yourself, do it consistently and the results will come! Don't celebrate by eating a donut though. That's counterproductive. Better choices don't have to happen all at once. You can build on it. If you mess up, and have an off day, try harder tomorrow. None of us got bigger than we are comfortable with overnight, you can't get where you want to be overnight either.

C - Log everything honestly. If you ate an extra portion of spaghetti, log that. If you are logging everything, and you are over your net calorie goal for the day consistently, then you need to figure out what works for you to budget your calories. Maybe it's adding an after dinner walk to burn off more? Maybe its adding more vegetables into your diet so you're still eating but eating less calories. It is what works for you. Which leads me to this last point:

D - Support from friends and family helps, but it is only you that make the change. When you're ready , you can do it. It may be hard, but nothing worth accomplishing usually comes easy.

Good luck!