I am the heaviest I have ever been. What is wrong with me?!

There is nothing wrong with you TankGirl, there are millions of us who have the same problem.
Keep reminding yourself that this is not permanent situation and that you can change it.
My advice is one step at time so that you are not overwhelmed. I think the reason so many of us
try and fail is because we put much pressure on ourselves by trying to make too many changes to fast.
Good luck in reaching your goals.

I feel the same way - I know weight takes time to lose - but i havent lost anything in a very long period of time . Dont give up - Everyone body is different. Logging is still important - Personally im going to change thoughts over the next month - Instead of watching calories - Im going to watch the carbs - Maybe this will help you as well. Hang in there - Remember every morning we wake up - we have a another chance to improve ourselves.

It is harder with young children because you cannot put them on the diet you are on. Wanting to get healthy for them is very motivating, but you have to want to do it for yourself first. First, get rid of all the bad foods that you like, but not everything that they like. The fewer bad options you have, the easier the choices to eat healthy seem to be. Working from home is very hard on a dieting plan. It's like working in a grocery store. You can only pick at what you choose to have in your office. You do not have a pantry there. The lack of face to face interactions does cause the mind to go into the "What difference does it make? Nobody sees me anyway." mode. You have to fight that.

It is harder with young children because you cannot put them on the diet you are on. Wanting to get healthy for them is very motivating, but you have to want to do it for yourself first. First, get rid of all the bad foods that you like, but not everything that they like. The fewer bad options you have, the easier the choices to eat healthy seem to be. Working from home is very hard on a dieting plan. It's like working in a grocery store. You can only pick at what you choose to have in your office. You do not have a pantry there. The lack of face to face interactions does cause the mind to go into the "What difference does it make? Nobody sees me anyway." mode. You have to fight that.

Yes you can. You can get them to eat healthier, and they are well nourished the same way you are. It's not a diet. Teaching them NOW how to eat properly is a good thing. All OP has to do is make sure she stays within calories then. Nothing wrong with feeding the kids the same things. Not restricting their calories at all, just feeding them the good stuff.

You are a working mom, that is why you are tired-I know the feeling! It is very hard to make yourself a priority, but you have to do it so you can be healthy and happy. If you are healthy and happy, your children will be too.
As for diet, I try to feed my child what I will eat. That way less junk is in the house, and my daughter is eating healthier than your average kid foods. She eats salad, veggies and fruits, too.
You didn't gain the weight overnight, so can't lose it overnight. That's what I keep reminding myself! You can lose! Best wishes.

TankGirrl, i honestly know how you feel cause i'm in the exact same boat and totally know how you're feeling. I'm 5lbs away from my highest weight and have gained just over 2stone since last christmas. Wow is it much much easier to gain than it is to lose
It really is hard and i'm struggling with the same problem but i've decided that from here on out things have got to change cause there's no way i can gain anymore so i'm forcing myself back into it. Untill i can control myself i'm only taking enough money out for bus fairs so that i'm not tempted by food places and also starting 30 Day Shred today and going to do the whole 30 Days and get back to healthy eaiting. I'm just trying to tell myself how great i'll feel by day 30 if i do this. Maybe you could start something like that to help get yoy back on track. I find that if i exercise i'm less likely to cave food wise. Good luck hun, i know how hard it is but just keep on trying, eventually that healthy eating mindset will come back

you know what, dont make it about weight... make it about being healthier... fitter, stronger person...

you can do it, make small goals, and keep going, even if you slip up every now and then, the trick is not to give up..

find something you love to do and do it, for me its weight lifting
good luck

I feel the same way too. You are not alone. Three months ago was the heaviest I've ever been and I still feel pathetic. My problem is lack of discipline and self control. Other people tell me I dont want it bad enough - I dont know. But every day I work at it and I've seen 6 lbs very slowly go away. I am always tired too, so its very hard to convince myself to exercise. But I walk all the time - its so easy and I can almost always convince myself to go for a short walk.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. And just quietly there is nothing too wrong with being heavy either.
but if you really want to change that, you can and being here is one step along that road.

Before any of us can succeed with the food, time, effort, exercise, heath and fitness goals you need to succeed in your mind. And most of us are only succesful once our head is ready. There is a wealth of information on this forum and online and already in this thread offering all sorts of excellent strategies to help you along the way.

Decide that you can do it and make it a priority in your life, and start taking up some of those strategies.

I also think that it can be a little bit like quitting smoking or any other addiction. You need to keep trying until something you do works. Each attempt is not so much a fail, but rather a step to you learning what the best method is for you to do this.

Hang in there, and try not to beat yourself up about it!

What's wrong with you is that you're eating too much for what you burn so your body stores it as fat.

Really that's it. Simple isn't it.

The solution is just as simple but not fast and possibly not easy at all.

First of all start counting what you eat (if you don't already) and log it (calories). Then watch the scale. Then figure out the relationship between the two. Somewhere there is a break-even point (maintenance) where if you eat exaclty X (give or take a few hundred calories) the value on the scale will consistently stay the same, given average amount of movement etc..

Then eat -500 and you will start so slowly but steadily lose weight.

A wise man I know always says "feelings follow actions". You are tired and feel like crap because you are so overweight and out of shape. That is stating the obvious, I know. But once you can make yourself make some healthy changes in your life, you WILL start to feel better.
Change your food choices away from carb and sugar loaded snacks to lean proteins, healthy fats, and lots of whole fresh veggies.
I know all too well the cycle of eating to feel better, then crashing a few minutes later and needing something else to get just a little bit of energy to keep going.
The sugar/carb high is so temporary, and gets shorter the more you have.
It is hard to break that cycle, but once you do it, you will feel so great.

Make sure you are getting enough restful sleep. It is hard with young children, but you really need sleep better than watching a TV show at night 'to unwind' after the kids are in bed.
Are you sleeping thru the night? Do you wake up a lot, or have trouble getting to sleep? Do you snore? If so,you may have some sleep apnea. When I was at my heaviest, I would wake myself up snoring. I couldn't seem to get enough sleep. I started using breathe right strips and that helped, until I could get some weight off. Now I don't have any sleep problems.

Exercise is hard to get started, but once you make yourself do it, even just a little, you will start to love the energy you feel afterwards.

I know right now it seems overwhelming and impossible. But just push thru to start making some changes, and you will feel better! Visualize yourself at a healthy weight and having the energy to do so many things with your kids.
You can do it. It is SO worth it.

Along with this advice I would suggest getting your iron and thyroid levels checked just to make sure they are normal.