**My name is Amber and I'm kinda new here**

Hi my name is Amber and I'm 20 years old 5'4" and 224lbs. I finally realized this morning that I have been hiding behind my weight and doing anything possible to alter my appearance to protect myself from my past repeating itself as I blamed my beauty for what happened so I figured if I changed my appearance I'd be safe. But now I realize that in hiding I am giving the men who hurt me that much more power over me and it's time for me to find my way back to myself. I know this is going to be a challenge for me but nothing worth having is given without working for it. :-)