Starting Over agian

Well I had lost 9kg, and then lost motivation so have put on another 3kg (maybe that's like six pounds??)

Anyway, I have made a decision of the will. I know I was happier when exercising and nourishing my body right.

So, instead of reacting to my feeling of the day "oh, I don't fee like going for a run today" "I really feel like having another biscuit" I have decided: there my emotions are not running the show! Beginning today!

Add me and let's encourage each other to ignore the emotional roller coaster and just commit to consistency!!

No need for shame as most of us have done the exact same thing. But that doesn't mean the future will be the same. Get back on board and make small changes to your meals to reduce the carb cravings (fewer carbs and more low carb veggies and some healthier fruits) and start getting more active again. You'll be back on track before you know it. But you have to take that first step and then try to stay on that path more times than you go off it! You can do it and deserve to have the healthy life you want!

I know that there is (rightly) a lot of argument against specialized or food-restricting diets on MFP. And I am not saying you NEED to do this. But your story reminded me so much of my mom that I had to post. She is also diabetic and was always in a significant amount of pain. We did Whole30 together last year, starting in October. She lost a significant amount of weight but more importantly, her pain levels are hugely improved and she was able to stop taking Metformin and stop taking insulin at all. She still checks her blood daily and always will, but it's no longer a real concern. Pretty amazing. She doesn't eat strict Whole30 anymore (it can be tough), but she is so happy with her results that it's pretty easy for her to stick close to that diet most of the time.

If you're interested the info is here: http://www.whole9life.com/category/whole-30/

Everything you need is on the website free - nothing to pay for.

I know exactly how you feel, I "wasted" ("wasted" cause what I needed was motivation, not materials, and I'm not using most of the things) money on equipment, magazines, dvds, I was starting and just after 4 or 5 days it was over... And you feel bad with yourself, and you feel depressed and much less like exercising and much more like eating... Besides I had no condition and with the extra weight it was impossible/hard to follow the routines, which made me feel even worst and also restrictive diets were killing me and I was often ruining them by overeating when I couldnt control anymore...

I have no a magic formula but what has worked so far for me is starting challenges, I end one and I move to the next, small ones, a week, a month... Right now I'm on a 90 day challange. For me it works to have a calendar on what to eat for everymeal so I have nothing else at home but that, and eating out 2 to 3 meals on weekends when I see my family or I go out with my husband, I'm not privated I just watch my portions, and if something is really big or too caloric I might share it. And about working out I follow calendars, I will print my calendars with the exercise I will do everyday of the month and sign just after I ended my workout, it feels so good to see your progress daily, and you might not feel like doing it but you will, because mine is on the fridge and it's so annoying to see everyday a mark missing,

Besides I've changed my mind, before I wanted to be thin, now I want to be healthy and strong. I used to think that overeating for a meal could ruin your work of days/weeks/months, and not exercising just as the plan says was the end of the world to me and I wouldn't go on, and after I would feel guilty and sad. And now I see it's not, we're not perfect and we're not supossed to be, maybe I ate a cookie more than I should or a pizza slice, or whatever but it's not over, not if you don't give up, you can make it up next time. I can't help to feel guilty sometimes if I didn't exercise or if I ate more than I should but I'm working on it. Every bite less that you take, and every minute you work out more makes a difference, and eventually we will get to where we want to be. Good luck!

I'm going through exactly the same thing... I feel for you, I really do. The only thing that has ever worked for me in these slumps is to get majorly pissed. Get mad. Use it as fuel to motivate you. I don't know if it will work for you or if it will even work for me this time, but I know it certainly helps me. I feel like I could take on the world again today for the first time in many months... I'm pissed, at myself, my life, a lot of things, and I'm not going to let depression or ****ty circumstances control MY happiness anymore!!!! Don't let that **** stop you from getting what you want, either. I hate giving up, so I'm not going to. Do not let the negative win. You, me, we're all stronger than that. I'm stronger than my depression. I know I am. I've proven it more than enough in the past - and you, you just need to give yourself a real opportunity to prove to yourself you are strong enough to do this, too. A REAL opportunity. Not one day, not a week, COMMIT to this. You can do it. It's up to you.

I know exactly how you feel. Today is my first day back (for the millionth time). I've been here, off and on for a few years now. Never seem to stick to it and always have a reason. "I feel healthy enough", despite the fact that I get winded walking to the car...lol. "I'm too busy", but I have hours to spend sitting on the couch crocheting. "I'm just too darned tired because I work mid-night shift", even though I KNOW that if I exercised and put better food into my body I wouldn't be so tired all the time, regardless of what shift I worked. So here's too all of us in hopes that this is our last first time!!! Good luck!

I can completely relate. The "stinkin thinkin" as I like to call it certainly doesn't help and has kept me down for a very long time.. Like others have said..beating yourself up wont help.

One thing that gets me motivated is watching "Fat Sick and Nearly Dead" Its a documentary on Netflix. He loses weight and takes his life back through juicing. I have started juicing and its helped. Even if you dont juice the way he does ..just his story alone might give you the motivation to just get started. It does for me. I honestly believe that will power and motivation alone is NOT enough.

Setting up a fail safe environment might help preparing yourself for when you find it hardest may help. For example, I noticed if I did not prep all of my food for the week on Sunday...cutting veggies, cooking healthy meals for the week..I would find myself in the fast food drive through WAY too much.

Also, having a partner to go the gym with has helped me a lot too...

Like with anything in life..we just need a good plan first...Good Luck..you can do it

I too have had this issue and what I told myself this time that food is like an illegal drug....im a food addict and I must not over eat. I made Saturday my cheat day where as long as im under 2000 calories I will eat what I want. :-) but I just have to be good all week to do that.

I am embarrassed to even admit I am starting over. I lost 108 pounds and during the course of a case of pneumonia then mono then pregnancy gained back 50 pounds. My eating is mindless. That makes me feel depressed so then I eat more and the cycle continues.
I HAVE TO GET THIS UNDER CONTROL!!!!
Maybe we can try to motivate one another.

Thanks for sharing. We all go through valleys at times and as long as you're starting over and not giving up, you're on the right track.