need MFP friends! need help!

I have been on this site for a few years now and was seeing results. When i originally started myfitnesspal I wanted to lose 15 lbs or so... I was very healthy but I wanted to drop some to attain a do-able goal. I actually met that goal. But not sure why, (probably laziness) I gained it all back and then some! When I first started, I was going to the gym regularly ( about 4-5 times a week) and playing tennis at least 2x a week, running and eating very healthy. Keeping under my 1200 cal was fairly easy between my healthy lifestyle and cals I burned/earned at my workouts. With my most recent job change, it has altered my ability to go to the gym as often ( actually I am lazy about morning gym time and I dont know why when it used to be part of my routine) and I don't go on 1.5 mile daily walks since I no longer have the need to walk to and from the train station. I no longer have access to tennis courts and also with the winter chill in the air, even with access I wouldnt go, and same goes for my trail running. My eating habits have migrated to the most abhorrent scale of bad and its almost like I can't help myself. Even though I am the only one who can help myself I see what I am doing is bad for me but I cant stop and I dont know why this is happening. My clothes are getting very tight or unwearable..why isnt this will power enough? I also do some work that requires me to meet via webcam and someone actually mentioned that I looked like a gained weight! unprofessional..but true. Why haven't I received a quick swift in the behind with THAT comment??!!?! My diary is now public but I dont have a lot of friends on the site..so even though i am accountable and can feel embarrassed when I pig out, no one really sees it. True, I shouldn't rely so much on others opinions but on this site I feel like we need to help out. Isn't that the point of this forum and making friends and making our diaries public ? Please help! Let's be friends! and I'll take any suggestion.
When i was at my best, I stuck to a High Protein/Low Carb/Low Sodium diet.