I can and am doing this!!!!

Not even sure how to begin connecting with others on this site but thought I'd give it a try. I have 60lbs or maybe even more to lose and have battled the same 10lbs for 7 years. I am so tired of starting a healthy eating plan, an actual diet plan, a workout plan or whatever else I've come up with only to lose 3lbs and give up. I have as I was drinking my wine and eating my bread on a Friday night (ruining all the hard work I put in for days on end) said "I'll start again on Monday" probably every Friday for the past 5-10 years. I love my life, my husband, son, job, friends etc. I am usually a very positive and fun person but this weight keeps me from doing so much. I don't want to reach out for new friends anymore, I am embarrassed at school events, I do not want to show my horse that I have prayed for years on end all because I am so uncomfortable. Why this isn't motivation enough I am not sure. Looking at all of your posts and pictures makes me want that so bad. That after picture and words of wisdom of why this time it finally worked. I want to say "on 11/20/2013 it all clicked and I started this amazing journey". Today was a good day... (thinking of Ice Cube the whole time I type that haha) Woke up early to do day 1 of the 30 day shred dvd and man I cannot believe how out of shape I am! Can't wait to kick that dvd's butt! Wore my body bug and after working in the barn had an extra 500 calories to eat today but only dipped in by about 100 calories over my 1200 allowance. I can and am doing this!!!!