I'm scared for my health

Awe big hugs to you. Hardest thing when you hit the low point in your life, but I've got good news for you it's not over! You are still breathing, and change can happen you can reverse or at least halt some of the damage.

Be scared though and use it as that driving force. Youre making the first steps you realize there is a problem. Now it's time for the hard work, and time to get serious about you.

I understand how you feel. I used to be pretty athletic and then I gained a ton of weight.

Just don't quit! That's what I tell myself when I'm feeling depressed. Never quit! If you do, you'll never get anywhere!

Message me if you'd like.

Crawl til you're strong enough to walk. Walk til you're strong enough to run. Then run and don't stop. fall down 7 times, stand up 8.

You can do this. We are here to help you! Please add me as a friend. I would LOVE to help support and motivate you in any way I can coco. Message me any time. I have a wonderful ear for listening and a strong shoulder to lean on my friend. xoxo

Recently, I have been feeling really breathless if I so much as climb a flight of stairs. I have been getting pretty horrid headaches and I've been feeling generally unwell and very depressed. I know I have put on weight again, but I didn't want to go the GP for a checkover.
I joined a gym on Monday and went for my induction. Before the induction, they like to weigh and take blood pressure.My blood pressure was was 165/92. they said they couldn't allow me into the gym without a GP clearance.
So I went to my GP today and had my checks.
Blood pressure was 170/80. Lungs sounded clear but GP felt she heard a systolic murmur. My weight has shot from 117kg last year to 129 kg.That's 18 stones to 20 stones 4lbs.
I am so disgusted with myself i just want to cry.
Tomorrow morning, I'm going for my chest xray. Thursday I start a fast to do a fasting blood test on Friday morning t check for Diabetes.. A request has gone to local hospital for an ECG and I have been referred to a Health Trainer. Part of the Change For life campaign.

I am quite simply extremely scared. How did I become so Morbidly obese. 20 years ago I used to be a track and field athlete. I ran everywhere, played netball, badminton, danced the night away every weekend. When did I become this blob that sits in an armchair?

I'm so depressed. To make it worse I'm going on holiday to Mexico in 4 weeks. I'm scared the seatbelt won't go around me!!!

I know it is scary as hell, but you WILL get through this!

When I started at the gym almost 2 years ago, I was morbidly obese-- 5'2" tall, 228.4lbs, and had just come off a 4 month cycle of asthma flares and bronchitis. My breathing was so bad that I had to pull over one day while driving because my vision was getting fuzzy . Walking 2mph on the treadmill for 30 minutes had my whole body on fire and dripping with sweat. I have been pre-diabetic, and changed it through diet.

I'm still morbidly obese, but I am 37lbs lighter. I have dropped all my asthma meds except my albuterol inhaler ( I use it before every workout). I have nice arm muscles, I have awesome legs, and I am starting to get stomach muscles!!

the left is me in 2010, I went on to gain another 30lbs, so I was BIGGER than that. The picture on the right is back in august or september--same shirt!


Untitled by crochetmom2010, on Flickr

this was a week ago. I am flexing a little so I can see my abs.

#fitspo #hardworkwins #nevergiveup #notacardiobunny by crochetmom2010, on Flickr

this was also last week. I can't believe I have leg muscles!

#yesisquat # musclemama by crochetmom2010, on Flickr

I love that "Crawl til you're strong enough to walk. Walk til you're strong enough to run. Then run and don't stop."

fall down 7 times, stand up 8.".

I think I am going to put that on my wall if you don't mind.

This is the perfect time to start! Reality hit you hard and it is the moment to get motivated and make a change! Number one for your health and number two so you can feel better off yourself. Don't torture yourself, you still on time to make a difference. That is how I started also, I went to for my annual exam and my bloodpressure was sky high, my blood test were all messed up and I hated how I looked. At that moment I promise myself I wasn't going to let it happen anymore and I started setting up goals. I been working out for 4months and it is comming off slowly but surely and I feel so much better. Plus my bloodpressure came down :-) Don't give up!!!!

As a physician, I'm proud of you for facing reality and not going into denial. Now that you have accepted that you have a problem, you have the power to change. I wish you luck.

I have been where you are at! It gets better!!!!

But, only with a commitment to change, a plan, and the dedication to follow through!

The best part, you can start today. No gym and no Doctor required to start down a new path.

As you are on this site, log everything! Food & exercise, no matter how small & insignificant it may seem for either. Keep your diary closed if you want. The logging is to start your education. If you are at all like I was, you will be shocked when you start to see the "cost" of how you have been eating.

Then, start making small changes. (Remove some thing negative from your diet) The first I made was to say good-bye to carbonated, sugar loaded soft drinks. (Coke was my nemesis). What ever change you chose, stick with it for at least a month. By then, this change will be a habit. Then make another change and keep it up for at least a month. As you keep repeating this process it becomes easier and the changes in your life will be astounding.

As you start making these small diet changes. Start adding in positive changes, drink more water, walk more, take the stairs when ever possible, go for bike rides, join a fitness class, join a dance class, etc, etc. The possibilities are endless and the best part is that you can try many different things to find something that works for you. What ever you chose must be fun for you! If it's not fun, it will be hard to keep it up over the long haul.

At the beginning it will not be easy! You will sweat, you will get tired, you will feel frustrated, you will stumble from time to time. All of this is normal. But, always keep you focus on your goals!

Another thing that helped me. Have both short & long term goals. My initial long term goal was to drop to 180 lbs (This seemed crazy when I weighed over 280 lbs). My short term goals varied. One of my most rewarding was my initial running goal. The circuit around my little neighborhood is 3k. My first running goal was to run this route with out stopping. It took me several months to get there, but I did it! Then, once this was achieved, I re-set my short term goal and started over! I went from 3k to 5k to 10k to 21k to running a full marathon this past Sept.

Last thought before I go. Lots of people will be giving you advice. (Me included!) Some of it will be valuable, some of it will be useless. My council is to never, ever give up on your personal goals! Investigate, read, research, listen and most important, try! In the end, your success is based solely on your efforts.

All my very best for your journey!

Sometimes you just have to hit rock bottom in order to pick yourself off the floor. Get cleared from your doctor and then its time to get to work. The only thing that can stop you is yourself.