So sick of it!!!

First of all quite looking at the scale everyday.

First you need to get on a good meal plan before you start cutting.
Daily
Protein 1 to 1.5grams per 1lb of bodyweight
Carbs 1gram per 1lb of bodyweight
Fat .5grams per 1lb of bodyweight

After a couple of weeks when you weight platos then keep protein and fats same but drop carbs to .5 grams for 2 to 4 weeks with a high carb day on rest days to jump start your motbalism.

OP, don't listen to this advice (above). it's not correct for you.

protein should be 1.0g/lb of LBM (lean body mass), not bodyweight.
fats should be 0.35g/lb of bodyweight.
carbs are irrelevant.

however, that's info about macronutrients.

your problem right now is weight loss and that's solely about calories in and calories out.

I know how you are feeling , i suffer from Pcos and Insulin resistance. I have lost weight and still have a way to go , i have been stuck at the same weight for a few months, i have stepped up my workouts , tried eating really carefully , i think i am doing great and then get onto the scale and it is the same or it goes up 1kg then next week i am down 1kg again and so it goes. This sometimes leads me to binges and feeling horrible but every time i get back up, dust myself off and know that if i keep trying i will succeed and every time i fail i become more determined to beat this. I came across an amazing book and it really is enlightening, read it , i will post the link for a pdf format . i including a few bits out the book. Put the scale away, make other goals for yourself, fitness wise, like to run a race or try something new. etc don't just concentrate on the weight part of it but how you feel when you are working out and eating right. Also take a look into calorie and carb cycling, it is pretty effective . It wouldn't be a bad idea to go for some blood tests and make sure you don't have any hormone or thyroid problems. But most of all don't give up!!!!!!!!! and when you fall down get back up, because everyone falls down and it is not easy. But believe in yourself !
So here are some snippets from the book, enjoy! The full version is http://www.dalemcnelly.com/The Slight Edge.pdf

The most powerful force for change is time.

That most valuable gift of all is a gift that you
always have. You always have a choice.

The important point is to start on the path and to
remember that no matter what has gone on before,
you can begin fresh and new and at any time you can
choose to start with a clean slate.

Greatness is always in the moment of
the decision.

No success is immediate. Nor is any failure
instantaneous.

The secret is to change the way you
think. Once you do, then you will take the steps you need to take, to lead you to
the how-to’s you need. If you don’t change your thinking, no amount of how-to’s
will offer a real solution. It’s not the “hows,” it’s how you do the “hows.”
This isn’t about self-hypnosis, or about conjuring up the impossible through
sheer positive thinking, or any other kind of hocus-pocus. And I’m not talking
about some complex, elaborate or heady system of ideas. And—although I’ll
completely understand if you find the last part of this sentence truly difficult to
believe—what I’m talking about is not difficult to do.
It simply means changing your thinking. Your philosophy.
The reason diets and other how-to’s don’t work for most people is the same
reason most how-to books and courses don’t work for most people. It isn’t
that the actions are wrong. It’s that people don’t keep
doing them.
A positive philosophy turns into a positive attitude, which turns into
positive actions, which turn into positive results, which turn into a positive
lifestyle.

Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you
just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will
come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up.
— Anne Lamott
There is one quality which one must possess to win,
and that is definiteness of purpose, the knowledge of
what one wants, and a burning desire to possess it.
— Napoleon Hill

“You
want a miracle? Be the miracle.”

You might tell other adults they are hurting your feelings and you would appreciate their support or to keep their comments to themselves.

People lose weight by how many calories they eat versus how much they burn. You're probably eating more than you think or overestimating how much you're burning through exercise, or you might have a medical problem.

Some suggestions:

Drink water. It fills you up and curbs your hunger.

Protein curbs hunger. Drink a protein shake if you aren't sure what to eat.

I try to eat simple nutritious foods that I know I will be eating long term -- not foods I am punishing myself with until my weight is where I want. I also look for foods with fiber like steamed kale, collards and spinach, and steel cut oats with sliced apple.

I try to stay away from processed food. It isn't necessary to stay away from processed food for weight loss -- lots of successful people have lost 100 pounds or more eating ice cream and potato chips every single day -- but I can't eat that stuff very often. Once I start, I can't stop eating it and crave it for days.

I don't eat my exercise calories back unless I'm hungry, or I eat some of them back but not all. I don't own any devices and am not sure what I'm really burning or eating. I have been told by MFP friends with heart rate monitors that the exercise numbers in the MFP database are often too high.

Be patient. There's a saying that you didn't gain the weight in a day so it isn't going to come off in a day. Figure out what you're going to eat, ask your loved ones for support, be positive, and work in exercise where you can - walk instead of using the car, that kind of thing.

You can do this just like thousands of other people! Better to get the weight off now rather than years from now when you've gained even more.

Stop beating yourself up. It's self defeating and resolves nothing.

Start afresh and take one day, or one meal if necessary at, a time. Stop focusing on the total amount you need to lose. You didn't gain this weight overnight it will take consistent diligent changes to achieve your goals.

If you give up, you're choosing to stay as you are.
If you choose to starve yourself in an attempt to get thin you're setting yourself up for failure.

Sensible daily deficit is the key and your body will use up its fat reserves.
Good luck.

If fasting until dinner worked for you in the past, there's probably no danger in it.

I understand the frustration. Some of it you sound like you feel like you've been singled out with this affliction not everyone in your family has? I would try to address that thinking because it will never help you succeed. Nearly all of us have weight management issues eventually in life, your niece probably will, too. It's not the worst 'affliction'. It's very normal and at least there are ways we can deal with it effectively. It's just finding the ones that you can do for the long term.

Good luck!

I know, its the only the thing everyday on my mind.
Eating, food, losing weight, counting and then food again.

OMG im driving myself crazy, im soo frigging obsessed with this.

And what bothers me the most, is when im eating somethin at work, the thin people always go:
Can i have one slice please or half of it :sick: , and then here i am wanting two slices .

YESSSSS as all of you are saying the only thing causes this, is that im still eating too much.
Im probably underestamating my food intake. Which is hard when youre really trying to watch everything you eat.

Sometimes i look at my food after i logged, and i would think, jeesz i eat too much, but when counting the calories its all between the 1200-1500 cal a day. THEN I JUST GET REALLY CONFUSED.

Im sorry, im sooooo pissed of today, at MYSELF and everyone and everything.
WHY IN GODS NAME, AM I BORN THIS WAY??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRAGAGHAGAHG!!!!!!!!

Why could i not have the nice shape that my family has. WHy WHy WHy?
And then my skninny Nieces go, OMG MY SIDES ARE SOOO FAT :sick:
I just wanna puke right there and then.

Can you read their minds? How do you know that they don't WANT 2 slices? I regularly eat a slice or a slice and a half of pizza. But, that doesn't mean that I don't want 2 slices. I love my mochas more than pizza, and often times that's what I've chosen to spend my surplus calories on that day.

Consistently log. Weigh and measure your food for accuracy. Really do this for at least a month and see what happens. You say that you've "tried everything" but, from your description this is the thing that you haven't actually tried.

OMG! You are so pretty, don't get upset! I had a friend that went from a size 22 to a 6, she said it took FOREVER to go down 3 sizes but when the weight starting coming off it was crazy how FAST it started dropping!

Invest in a digital food scale. Weigh and log EVERYTHING that you eat. Simple.