Recovered Anorexic

allflowers
allflowers Posts: 6
in Motivation and Support
Hi, my name is Becca.

Of course, since it’s (almost) the start of a new year, it’s time for a weight loss and health-oriented goal. I’ve had several weight loss goals in the past, which lead to a downward spiral into an eating disorder. The differences this year are 1. I’m going to try my hardest to stay healthy, 2. I will set a realistic goal, and 3. I will not give up over small (or big) mistakes.

I’ve decided to use MFP for support and accountability. I really hope it will help me not slip back into my self-destructive behaviors. I’ve recently recovered and regained all of the weight I lost (plus a little more). It’s really hard for someone with disordered eating to stay on the right track and not relapse, as I have many times before. I really want 2014 to be my year of healthy eating and healthy weight loss. Hopefully the support of everyone here will help me stay on the right track and help me change my life for the better.

I'm currently 5'5. At my lowest weight, I was 108 lbs. At the moment, I'm between 135 and 140 (I haven't been weighing myself every day). My realistic weight loss goal is 120 lbs by May 29th of 2014, it's definitely subject to change though. Thank you for taking the time to read this! I hope this community can help me reach my goals.

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  • neandermagnon
    neandermagnon Posts: 7,436 Member
    I think your goal should be to throw the scales in the bin and just focus on being fit, strong and healthy, and on learning how to not care about how much you weigh. You start by saying it's time (based on the time of year) to have a weight loss goal, then talk about how easy it is for you to spiral out of control with that. So I think you need to have a goal that is focussed ONLY on health, and include both physical and mental health on that. Seriously. Make this your year of healthy eating, healthy exercise and being mentally healthy.

    the number on the scale is largely meaningless. Aim to be fit, strong, healthy and able to survive a zombie apocalypse, or some other goal that focuses on what you're capable of, rather than what some number on a scale says.
  • allflowers
    allflowers Posts: 6
    It's not the numbers on the scale that I'm worried about, I have OCD and it's just easier for me to set goals with numbers. My focus is healthy eating, exercise and staying mentally healthy. I'm currently unhappy with the body recovery has given me but not nearly to the point I was before, it's not taking over my life anymore. I just want to be like people without ED's and be able to set weight loss goals and reach them the healthy way. I feel like it could be beneficial for me to join a community full of people who are eating healthy as opposed to the pro anorexia websites I've found myself on in the past. No obsessive weighing, dangerous restricting, or anything of that nature. Just healthy intake, weight and exercise goals.

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