lost 120 regained 35....:(

I underwent gastric bypass almost 4 years ago and did really well. I have sadly gotten lazy and not used my "tool" wisely and so here I am. Through the whole process I almost felt like I mentally sabotaged myself by panicking over gaining weight back. And thats exactly what I have caused myself to do. I do have a certain way that I have to eat due to my internal structure now (potien first, everything else last) so I'm just looking for support from others. I mean let's face it, after gasdtric bypass, if I can't make this work, what else is there????? I've done drastic, now I need to get on track very badly before I'm totally out of control!!