New here and seeking advice

Hello all. Firstly I am new here and this is my first post. Just getting that out of the way. And I am sorry if this will be a little long.

I am a 21 year old white male, around 185 pounds. I have no muscle at all. I have body fat but I do not look like a person who needs a electric wheelchair in WalMart. I would say I am average.

I know I can easily lose the weight. The problem here is, I just don't have motivation to work out or eat healthy. I went to to the store and purchased fruits to eat one time and that it was so expensive and the food went bad quickly. I told myself I'll never do that again. I also tell myself that it's too late to look good. I'm 21 and time has run out to have the body I wanted since a teen. And I know it's never too late to do it. I am still young and I have time to get the body I always wanted. I always told myself that I would workout, eat right, etc etc and it never happened. I don't think It ever will.

I am not the healthiest eater in the world but I recently cut out fast food. I had McDonald's last week and that was the first time I had it within a month and a half. I stopped eating Taco Bell completely. So I can say that I kind of started what I want to do. But I still go out to eat with friends and family. I love soda. I cut back on soda too. I use to have three to four cans a day and now I have either one a day, one and a half a day, or some days I might not have any at all. So again, I have started in the right path a little. I did quit cold turkey on soda for a week but I went to the cheesecake factory one day for my friend's bday party and I had a coke and man did it taste good without having it for so long. Ever since that day, I went back into drinking soda but I don't consume as much as I use too. I was told many times that I don't have to quit cold turkey.Just don't drink it as much and eventually I'll stop drinking it (that isn't working yet). I don't eat a lot of junk food anymore. I'll have a snack here and there but I don't have a lot.

My mom, dad and sister all go to the gym. I always tell myself why haven't I started going? Simply because I have no idea what the hell I am doing and how to work that equipment. I don't even know what to wear to a gym and I don't have money to fork out every month for a membership. I also simply don't feel like doing it. I know that sounds bad and it does, but that's how I feel. A few days I went bowling for the first time in a few months. Bowling is exactly like lifting weights, you're working your arm muscles. I went on Sunday and my right arm still hurts from it so I can only Imagine what lifting weights and working out must feel like, and I do, here is why: I lifeguard during the summer. I have been for 5 years. 2014 summer will be my 6th summer lifeguarding. It's all moving, being active, walking, the running, pushing heavy people down the slide, is a work out. At the beginning of every summer, my body aches all over but eventually i get use to all the activity and the hurting goes away.

I know working out will hurt and be challenging. If my arm hurts nearly 7 days i went bowling, I don't want to deal with the pain, which I also told myself and another reason why I don't have the motivation to work out.

I don't know how to lose weight. My body is so use to what I normally eat. Even If i did work out and started to eat healthy and losing weight, there would be no way I would gain muscle and lose the weight in my belief. I would still look exactly the same as I do now, a flabby stomach and arms.