Looking for friends with 50+ lbs to lose!

Hello everyone!

I've been struggling with my weight for about five years, but I started out my weight loss journey with very unhealthy habits (severe calorie restricting, etc), so naturally I gained it all back and then some (by picking up other unhealthy habits like eating a pint of ice cream in one sitting, hiding food in my room, or eating entire pizzas). I went up and down like that until 2011, when I graduated from college. By the end of that year, I hit my highest weight at 196. Since then I've still been going up and down, but thankfully it's generally been a downward trend. This past summer, I started walking and running and began changing my eating habits. Rather than relying on "low fat" or light/diet foods, I am now going for cleaner eating, focusing on natural ingredients and organic food. I felt better than I have in years and I got down to about 170, but then fell of the wagon AGAIN and gained back 10+ lbs over the last half of the year. So, I'm extremely frustrated!! Not to mention afraid that I've permanently messed up my metabolism with all this yo-yo dieting and binge eating.

I'm currently in a Master's program for teaching, and I really, REALLY want to finish my journey to fitness by the time I start student teaching in the fall this year. I'll also be 25 in June, which means I've spent the first half of my 20's being fat, unhealthy, and depressed with zero self confidence and no desire to be social as a result of that. I hate feeling like I threw away those years, so it has to end this year. Before I turned 20, I weighed about 110-120 lbs pretty consistently, but I was terribly out of shape. So my ultimate goal is to settle in between 125 and 135 and be in the best shape of my life!

So... yeah. I'm really determined now, especially to get past the 170 hump, because I've been kicking around in the 170's for like over a year now. What I really need, I think, are some more motivational friends on this site. So if you are a girl who has similar goals, similar habits you fall into, can relate to my story in any way, or if you also need more friends to motivate you, PLEASE add me! I would also love some friends who have had a lot of success that I can look to for inspiration! I especially need people who use MFP religiously, because I'm motivated to stick with logging my calories by seeing other people's daily diary entries. And I would love to have some friends who will yell at me if they see "_confunded_ hasn't logged on for 2 weeks, they might need some motivation" type messages on their news feed, haha.

So... yeah, I'm not new to MFP, but I'm looking forward to making some more MFP friends! I cannot afford to get off track anymore!