I FREAKIN QUIT!!!!!!!

So, I had someone ask me what was my motivation for quitting.............. Maybe I could inspire them. That they didn't know me and were very proud of me. I thought to myself.......... Maybe there are more people who need inspired. MAYBE if i talk about it, it will reaffirm my decision and aid with my will power. SO I copied and pasted my response to that wonderful individual for all to see.

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My inspiration came like this.... I never knew that my smoking hindered my health. Never had any issues with breathing or anything. ** I didn't think**

I wanted to lose weight soooooo bad. I paid to see a nutritionist for 2 months and started exercising. When I realized that it wasn't my eating, but my inability to have an intense workout because the pain in my chest was keeping me down-I thought to myself..... Man I need to quit. If I wanted to actually be able to work out, to work the muscles I was intending to work on, to do zumba, to walk fast or even jog, Tae Bo tapes, running stairs, OR anything. I was going to have to stop smoking. That was the ONLY thing that would fix my breathing. Believe me, I love to smoke. If there were some magic pill that I could take to make my chest feel better while exercising and to smoke, I probably would have chose that. That isn't an option though... Everytime I worked out I got mad at myself. I had done this to myself. I had placed this burden on myself. I felt handicapped. Then I quit working out. Started blaming it on other aspects of my life, when really-it was because I was coughing, gagging and felt strangled everytime I did.

I started thinking: I will NEVER regret quitting. I will however continue to struggle with exercise and it will NEVER get better. I have to do this for myself (And I thought by myself). BUT MFP proved me way wrong......

Another motivation......... I have 2 kids. My mom smoked. I remember begging her to quit. She still hasn't. She smokes 4 packs a day and has ever since I can remember. Even though I'm a smoker I still ask her to quit....... How Ironic.? My daughter says to me all the time that I need to quit. She is 6 right now. I never want to make her feel the way I felt and continue to feel about my mom.

I told myself that once I hit 140 I would quit smoking......... that never came. Almost like subconcious, self sabatage. I was gaining???????? Soo I said screw it.... I gotta do it now. So I got on eBay, bought some nic gum, level 2 patches, a subliminal stop smoking CD and smokeless cinnamon flavored cigs. HELL by that time I had already invested in quitting. So This week I am maintaining 4 cigs a day. I orginially said 8 but 4 has been simple with some use of the gum here and there. I decided that on the 21st I am done. I told my daughter and she was jumping up and down with joy. I can't let her or myself down. I hope this helps somewhat. BUT you have to do want to. I just actually had reasons to want to.