A New Beginning

Hi everyone. My name is Coley and I'm not so new to the site. I actually lost over 50 pounds with the help of MFP and its community. You may be asking yourself "then why are you posting on the 'introduce yourself' message board?" Well, a little over a year ago I was the healthiest I've ever been. I was confident and happy and I was taking the world by storm. I finally had my life back. However, one night I was assaulted by a guy at a college Christmas party. I was so angry and mad at him. He took everything from me. Worst of all I hated myself. I couldn't stand to see what I saw in the mirror. I felt so disgusting. I began eating less and less, only consuming 500 calories a day and exercising vigorously. In some ways I believe I was punishing myself for what had happened. About four months later, I decided that I wasn't punishing myself enough and decided to break a promise I made to myself a long time ago. I was going to eat myself back to the unhealthily obese girl who was on a straight path to heart disease or diabetes. It took me about 6 months to gain all the weight back that I had lost. In the process I lost myself again. I look in the mirror and I don't recognize who I see. I'm not who I want to be. A few weeks ago I decided to say enough is enough. I'm no longer going to let that guy have control of my life or my happiness. He took everything from me and I'm ready to get it back!

So here I am! I've started a brand new profile. I'm starting a brand new life and will come out stronger than I've ever been. Here's to my new beginning! :drinker:

Please add me. I'm going to need a lot of support!