So much harder the second time around

Hello,
I am a repeat offender! I worked very hard and lost over 80 pounds about five years ago and have slowly added back about 30 pounds... I am furious with myself and ready to do something different. The hardest part is getting my eating back under control. Not so much portions but ideas of things to eat! I was so focused before and not as much anymore. I am hoping to find motivation to stay the course and make the hard choices staying away from the foods I know don't help me reach my goal!!

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  • gogojenniko
    gogojenniko Posts: 31 Member
    I'm on my 3rd trip around. Hoping to do it right this time after a lot of victories but a horrible 2013, so I know how you feel.
    Take good care of yourself!
  • SallieBeige
    SallieBeige Posts: 341 Member
    This is also my second time around ... this time I started off way heavier than I was the first time :frown: :frown: :frown:

    I am trying to convince myself it is like Harry Potter when he went back in time and saw himself conjure the patronus charm

    He later said, " I knew I could do it this time, because... well, because I'd already done it!

    (Hope you follow Harry Potter or this post probably means plain rubbish!)

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  • Iknowsaur
    Iknowsaur Posts: 777 Member
    Also on my second try /:
    I lost 80+ pounds when I was 15, and after two years of maintenance I began to put it all back on over the last year, plus a little extra. I'm having a sleeve done in May to help ensure I keep it off this time, so it's extra hard for me to stay motivated. I wanted to lose 15-20 pounds by then, just for my own self esteem and health.
    Feel free to add me!
  • HAHAHA Likes the Harry Potter response!!
  • JeniFairchild
    JeniFairchild Posts: 19 Member
    Good Luck too you! I too started again a few weeks ago!
  • NaughtyNibbling
    NaughtyNibbling Posts: 11 Member
    I know how you feel! I started my weight loss in May 2011 all the way to January 2013, and lost 106lbs! I was still far from my goal, and I ended up gaining back 28 pounds all through 2013, after my trip to England. A lot of bad things happened then, and 2012 was a horrible year, and I got REALLY depressed. I just ate all day and laid around the house, and didn't care. I think I've gotten my head back right. :frown:
  • TeriaShae
    TeriaShae Posts: 144 Member
    Hello there. This is also my second time around. I lost 115 pounds and gained back 40 during my freshman year of college!
    I'm slowly getting back on track, but I agree, MUCH harder the second time!
  • caminoslo
    caminoslo Posts: 239 Member
    what changed
  • well tell yourself at least you didn't gain all the weight plus. and kudos for getting back in the game before you did, good luck on your journey you can do this.
  • kiwigal41
    kiwigal41 Posts: 1,059
    totally love Harry Potter.....totally get it!!!!.....good luck this time around.....I'm still on the first time....have never quit....got down from 172lb to 118lb at my lowest.....then started lifting and gradually the scale has climbed back up....it's doing my head in!!!!!....right now it's 128lb....I'd be happy to get back down to 120lb.....feel free to add me.....I live here.....:)
  • florentinovillaro
    florentinovillaro Posts: 342 Member
    Don't feel too bad, I've gained and lost 55-94 lbs about 4 times in the past 25 years. The only difference now is, I have MFP and a support team. I see this as very sustainable.
  • brdnw
    brdnw Posts: 565 Member
    i went from 285 to 225 to 265 back to where i am now. Sometimes you need to fail to refocus yourself and realize what you want and how bad you want, my problem was when i hit 220/225 i started to coast a little and got content too easily, now that will never happen again.
  • RunMyOregonBunsOff
    RunMyOregonBunsOff Posts: 862 Member
    This is my 2nd time around too, because after getting lose to my goal weight I got pregnant and now I get to enjoy the journey again and celibate the little victories all over again too.

    Also, if you aren't already using quinoa, give it a try! There are about a million recipes and the portions are low cal and high protein for the portion size. I made some last night. For two servings I used 1/2 cup quinoa (just plain bulk) and a little over 1/2 cup water, 1/2 cup OJ and a teeny bit of vegetable base (I like it better than veg broth or bullion). Then I added in some chopped celery and sweet onion and served it over a little bit of chicken breast.
  • steroids ... fighting cancer, boy, I really packed on the pounds. It's a battle, lost my ability to walk, had a knee replacement..I know right?.. So, I'm gonna give it my best shot.. hugs
  • RunMyOregonBunsOff
    RunMyOregonBunsOff Posts: 862 Member
    steroids ... fighting cancer, boy, I really packed on the pounds. It's a battle, lost my ability to walk, had a knee replacement..I know right?.. So, I'm gonna give it my best shot.. hugs

    You can do this! If you can beat cancer, you can kill a few lbs! Just don't ever give up!
  • dyylajoi
    dyylajoi Posts: 11 Member
    Huge HP fan, love the analogy!