75+ Pounds down

My name is Bailee and I am 20 years old.

I began gaining weight in middle school after I was raped and assaulted when leaving my school Valentines Day dance. I turned to food to ease the pain it caused. It was a temporary happiness and much better than the anxiety attacks and nightmares.

Throughout high school I played soccer on our school team. I was good at soccer, but not at running. I could only run for a few minutes before I had to stop. Tryouts consisted of running a 5k the first day and for 4 years I was the last girl to finish, and by a large margin. It was mortifying. I was made fun of and laughed out numerous times by my own teammates and other teams. I hated it, but my mother made me continue to play. (Which I am thankful for now)

For the most part I was in denial about how much I weighed. If a photo was taken of me I would quickly untag myself and tell myself it was just a bad angle. I wore granny panties (how embarrassing) AND spankies everyday under my jeans and one of those tight tank tops that was supposed to make your stomach flat. I was a mess.

The first time I remember weighing myself was after I had started eating healthy with a friend who was trying to lose weight. I had probably already lost some but I weighed in at over 240 pounds. I cried in my bathroom until my mom made me come out. That's when it hit me. I had to do something about it. I began walking in the afternoons around the lake and watching what I ate. I lost 30 pounds in the first 3 months. One day I realized I had ran a 5k around my neighborhood with out stopping, something I couldn't have done 3 months ago. I was hooked. People called me crazy and obsessed for counting my calories and working out as much as I did but I didn't care.

It has been a slow process but it has been worth it. I have stopped and restarted multiple times (Christmas *cough cough*) but I will eventually be where I want to be and that is what matters.




The first photo is from my senior pictures. I cried when we got them back because I looked so fat. The second is from yesterday when I tried on a dress that I didn’t think would fit me, let alone look decent. I am currently 165 and I am 5 foot 5.

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