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You will find it easier to resist bingeing at night if you feed yourself enough nutritious food during the day.

get really disgusted with myself bc I know I shouldn't have purged out.

If you are purging, you need to seek medical attention. In addition to the psychological aspects of purging, it can cause physical damage, especially to your esophagus.

If you are in the US, here is a link to a hotline: http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/find-help-support

I'm not sure if it's a lack of self control or self discipline but I cannot seem to stop eating junk. I will eat unhealthy, know I'm eating unhealthy crap, enjoy it while I'm eating it and then really regret it afterwards and get really disgusted with myself bc I know I shouldn't have purged out. I know what I need to do to lose weight yet I still eat all these things I know I shouldn't. I feel like the need to eat is overwhelming and I HAVE to eat (and it always ends up being the bad stuff)...and then hate myself for doing it. Someone be straight with me. Do I have a problem!? Do you feel like it's just a self lacking thing? This kind of eating for me usually happens at night...my day usually starts out pretty healthy and then seems to decrease as the day goes on.

The answer is in your own post, a large % of the western world has a problem with over eating, you are no different, we all tell ourselves we will start next week or one burger won't do any harm, it is no different to drinkers or smokers or drug users, only you can summon the willpower, you will get advice on here but at the end of the day it is you who decides what you put in your mouth

Are you waiting too long to eat? Sometimes drinking a lot of water helps me some days, I use the non caloric flavored water. I don't eat junk food but I eat food that doesn't do me any good and certainly doesn't contribute to my feeling better about myself. Try not eating anything that you classify as junk for one day, then try for two days and you might be able to give it up entirely. Go for it. What do you have to lose but weight and overcoming something you don't like about yourself.

I'm not sure if it's a lack of self control or self discipline but I cannot seem to stop eating junk. I will eat unhealthy, know I'm eating unhealthy crap, enjoy it while I'm eating it and then really regret it afterwards and get really disgusted with myself bc I know I shouldn't have purged out. I know what I need to do to lose weight yet I still eat all these things I know I shouldn't. I feel like the need to eat is overwhelming and I HAVE to eat (and it always ends up being the bad stuff)...and then hate myself for doing it. Someone be straight with me. Do I have a problem!? Do you feel like it's just a self lacking thing? This kind of eating for me usually happens at night...my day usually starts out pretty healthy and then seems to decrease as the day goes on.

The answer is in your own post, a large % of the western world has a problem with over eating, you are no different, we all tell ourselves we will start next week or one burger won't do any harm, it is no different to drinkers or smokers or drug users, only you can summon the willpower, you will get advice on here but at the end of the day it is you who decides what you put in your mouth

I totally agree with this as well as the food "corporations" know the ingredients are addictive. It is a damn addiction, and like kicking any addiction it is not easy. I struggle daily with this. I even really enjoy good nutritious foods, love salads, oranges, nuts, ect. but there is always that calling for crappy food. I love it more than anything, why is that? I think the people who produce this kind of food know exactly why!! What I wouldn't do for a chili cheese burrito!

PS. my apologies, apparently I am of little help to you..

It's like this; you get sick of this cycle of self loathing. You decide to be hungry just for the moment. You find something to do to occupy yourself for the moment. You buy sugarless gum when you must chew. You mix a batch of green tea and sip it during the day. You make yourself go to bed early. You lie down and realize for that day you won. The next day you feel that every hunger pang is a mark of triumph. Your stomach shrinks, your craving cease, and you relish the taste of your delicious healthy foods. You pass by junk foods and give them the finger because they lost and they can't control you. You like yourself because you are winning the war.

I want to put this on my wall, or carry it around in my wallet.

I don't care if you are binging and purging or just binging. It is a self esteem problem. Get professional help.

I'm not sure if it's a lack of self control or self discipline but I cannot seem to stop eating junk. I will eat unhealthy, know I'm eating unhealthy crap, enjoy it while I'm eating it and then really regret it afterwards and get really disgusted with myself bc I know I shouldn't have purged out. I know what I need to do to lose weight yet I still eat all these things I know I shouldn't. I feel like the need to eat is overwhelming and I HAVE to eat (and it always ends up being the bad stuff)...and then hate myself for doing it. Someone be straight with me. Do I have a problem!? Do you feel like it's just a self lacking thing? This kind of eating for me usually happens at night...my day usually starts out pretty healthy and then seems to decrease as the day goes on.

I think this behavior, while problematic, is quite common. I have to struggle against it myself, and I know many of my friends do it or have to try really hard not to. I think it's so much harder to exercise self control in the evening when you are tired. Boredom doesn't help either. (I'm bored, but I'm too tired to do anything fun!) What has worked for me so far is exercising control at the grocery store (like another poster mentioned) and either keeping myself busy in the evening or just going to bed. Also, of course, I'm careful to meet my nutritional needs with healthful foods throughout the day and drink lots of water. I know that I tend to want to snack while I'm relaxing in front of the TV or reading in the evening, so I took up crocheting and knitting to occupy my hands. You can't eat and crochet/knit at the same time! So maybe there's a low-key hobby that interests you that will help you break a bad habit and start a better one. Good luck! You are SO not alone with this!

You are completely normal and are in good company! The best way to avoid this at night is not to have these foods available - if they are there they will be eaten. You can find a replacement habit that is at best "least objectionable" or heaven forbid enjoyable! Then as one person suggested there are hobbies / activities that you can take up. It can be hard to plan ahead but if you can then great - One of the snacks I use to go for was honeyed carrot - softened a little but crispy for instance. I use to loathe celery - but I actually enjoy its flavour now this is a good snack food with hommus or similar, there are other more things like prosciutto and figs or other nuts and fruits - if you start looking there are plenty of options to replace with "healthy" forms. I recommend that you do not deny yourself altogether - pick you favorite snack foods but I suggest taking them to the next quality level - if you love chocolate then get something in smaller portion packs that has an intense flavor and enjoy these in moderation. If it pastries etc... then don't get the dime a dozen - get one from a boutique bakery - one that you can eat slower and enjoy. ( I did try sugarless gum - this for me was a mistake as it did little for cravings for me and it become addictive for me ).