Making progress!

Hey everyone, this is my first post. I'm usually not one to share but I figured hitting 65 pounds down was worth sharing. I still have about 20 pounds to go to reach my goal weight but I'm thrilled by my progress.

I used to smoke about 1 pack of cigarettes a day and very rarely did any sort of physical activity. I've been overweight my whole life and that's the way I figured I always would be. I quit smoking in June of 2013 and in August I started going on walks a few times a week and started watching what I ate more closely.

From August through September I lost a little under 20 pounds and knew that I wanted to keep this going. I have struggled with anxiety for quite some time but I really wanted to join a local gym. The thought of working out in front of other people was absolutely terrifying to me at first. After joining the gym, it took me about 4 weeks before I could actually get myself to go workout there. One night I decided that it was time to give it a shot. I went later at night hoping that nobody was there. When I pulled into the parking lot, I saw that there were other cars there and I panicked. I immediately turned around and went home to try to calm myself down. Having a panic attack the first time that I tried to go to the gym was incredibly discouraging for me. I made all of these changes over the last few months and now I couldn't get myself to walk into a building.

I finally got myself to go back a few days later and forced myself to go inside no matter what. I started out using the weight machines they had there and walking on the treadmill. I still felt like I didn't belong there but I kept at it. I kept losing more weight and began to feel more confident.

I started running on the treadmill and really started to enjoy it. I never thought it would be something I would like but I think its because its something I've never been able to do so it is fun to see how much I can push myself. I recently was able to jog 10K on the treadmill without stopping which was an incredibly great feeling.

I'm still dealing with anxiety issues but don't want to take medication for it. I already take meds for ADHD and I would rather try to work through my anxiety by exposing myself to new things. Most of my anxiety is brought on by social situations and comes from being very unconfident my entire life. I've recently decided to try dating again but its been a struggle putting myself out there. I'm confident that I will work through this like I've worked through so many other things along the way.

The greatest thing to come out of this experience so far aside from better health is seeing how much my friends and family are there for me. Their love and support has been amazing and I couldn't have done this without them.

SW: 276
CW: 210
GW: 190