Finally........ Acceptance!!!

I woke up this morning thinking "it's time to upload a new profile pic" and as I got into my profile expecting to see the one pic I uploaded, I noticed there was one picture there I didn't expect to see and even less intend to upload........ THE HORROR, anything but a full body picture!!!! Me on the elliptical machine was a private picture for my sister. I thought to myself "how did this happen? Did I accidentally upload it and forgot to delete or did my phone or my husband play a trick on me (unlikely) " lol. As I was about to delete it, I thought " why is this such a terrible thing? It is me , it is who I am, MY BODY," I never EVER post full body pics, I either crop them or yell at the person to take it from the boobs up lololol!!! I was able to meditate on my feelings and decided to accept.

No more being ashamed of what I look like. Although I am not proud of the image that I sometimes see in pictures and in the mirror, I have atleast accepted my heavy figure and accepted the fact that I look this way cause of the poor choices I made in the past. Time to take back control. Time to stick to choices that will get me to where I want to be and get to the shape of body that will make me feel proud and healthy. Time to be honest with myself. No more hiding myself away from the world. I might look this way now , but at least I am doing something to improve my appearance and my health.

So in celebration, not only did i leave that dreaded picture, I have added more full body pics of our vacation this past January. I will add one soon of a mirror selfie!! Hahaha.
Here is to my before pictures!!!!! :laugh:
Feeling great!