A not humble brag

Awhile back, on another account, I posted a success story that eventually got locked and left troves of people debating and fighting amongst themselves. Why, you may ask? Because I lost 30 pounds in 3 months, at 5'3, with no exercise and no, I was not obese - I wasn't even overweight. I did it very dangerously with no nutrients or vitamins but instead the emptiest possible calorie around and only 600-800 of them, at that. I was so proud of my skinny little self, and said, "Forget you guys, I'll be thin forever! I can do this for the rest of my life, it's easy peasy!"

Then the holidays came. I decided that after all that time, I should reward myself! I ate about six burgers and fries from Checkers amongst other things, and the next morning I went from 106 to 125. WHAT? I figured it was just water weight and started my "diet" again, only to fall off and repeat several more times until I realized that I was back to where I started. I kept convincing myself that I could start eating crazy low amounts again and be back to where I was in a month. Two weeks ago, I finally got back on my starvation track. I lost a few pounds in a few days and started feeling irritable, cold, my hair began falling out again, I couldn't focus or think and I felt like death (and started to look like it, too) - it got to the point where I couldn't even really write or function. I just wanted to sit, watch TV, and sleep. The 10th or so day came, and I ate, and I ate a lot. I realized from some other posts that I may have been developing an eating disorder. I never wanted to be scary skinny (I'm very small framed, my 106 looks like a good 115-120). I would NEVER purposely throw up. So, how could I POSSIBLY have an ED? I LOVE FOOD....I digress.

When I was about 13, I was really heavy and seriously unhealthy. I started counting my calories and went from just under 200 pounds and 5'2 to 104 pounds, and I felt great, and ate more food than most people anyway. I figured if it worked then, it'll totally work now! So I downloaded my old software I used to use back then to track my calories (because I know it SO well), and I started eating 1,400 calories a day. That was a little too much for me and would trigger me off, and I ended up eating about 2,000 the next day. The day after my over indulgence, I recalculated my calorie goal and have been going strong since. It has only been 3 days, but I can't shut up about it at all. Like, everyone knows, and EVERYONE MUST KNOW. So here I am. I am surprised at how much food I can eat! I must have forgotten, because seriously, I feel like I'm eating all day and I feel GREAT. Look at how much food I had yesterday!! (I skip breakfast always, always have, it's just not my thing)

Lunch: 2 poptarts (Oh goodness they are heaven, I haven't had a poptart in YEARS. I got the strawberry one with the pretty sprinkles)

Dinner: Santa Fe Rice and Beans by Smartones, it has so much cheese and is so good I put it over a bed of lettuce and made an awesome salad out of it!

Dinner-snack?: Two pieces of WHITE!! bread, 2 pieces of turkey, a piece of cheese, mustard and lettuce (I love lettuce)

Dinner-snack 2?: A serving of saltine crackers and a serving of pretzels

Dinner-snack 3 (Okay, I'm a night eater): An awesome mango-cherry-something slushie icepop!

I wasn't FULL, I'm learning to stop eating until I'm disgustingly "I'm gonna puke" full, and instead shoot for satisfied. I ate about 1,229 calories (I didn't count my coffee or various low calorie drinks throughout the day, but that was probably a good 50-100 extra).

So, three days, eating pretty much whatever my heart desires, AND feeling energized and HAPPY? I went from 126 to 123. Sure, it may be water weight, but that is some serious encouragement! I am totally re-sold on calories (and here I thought you guys were just being weird jerks looking for fights)! I'm just so excited because I know if I did my other starve-diet, I'd lose the weight, sure, and probably faster than I will now, and be back in my pretty clothes - but in a few months, I'd be back to square one. This time, I feel like I can do this forever, only seriously this time! I started looking at the calories for some of my favorite foods (Taco Bell) and was just astonished that YES I CAN EAT IT - no more day dreams of burritos! Bring it on, holidays!

BTW: This may not be like a real weight loss success story, but it's a big success for me to get back to the calories and doing it the right way. In a few months I'll post pics! ^_^