Out of shape mommy

Hello my names Ash. I just had my daughter in September of 2012. I, not too long afterwards signed up with a nearby gym, hoping to rid of this dreadful baby weight, but of course, I hardly had the time (made the time) to go. I would always get into a routine and something would throw me off and that would be it. Now I'm a single mother, I have a fulltime job and after getting into a car accident I have to see a chiropractor three times a week. I was doing herbalife but I'm always so busy and on the run that sometimes it's easier to grab lunch somewhere (junk of course). I just remember when I was 15/16 I weighed 130lbs. I thought I was the fattest person on the planet, I was so self-conscious and I had such low self-esteem. Now I look back at those pictures and want to go back in time and slap myself. It all started when I was in the hospital with severe pain and they discovered ovarian cysts (one of them being very large) their solution was to put me on an extremely high dose of birth control, which would then shrink they cysts. But of course what does most birth control usually do? Cause weight gain, and being on a high dose I gained about 20 pounds. I had maintained 150 pounds for a while. I got pregnant with my daughter at 19, I had a very bad relationship with her father. So ontop of the natural urges to pig out while pregnant, I was depressed majority of the time so I took food in as a comfort. I gained a lot of weight while I was pregnant, but I actually weigh more now then I did at 9 months pregnant! I'm a whopping 200 pounds and I'm 5'7. I cry sometimes because I look so huge and repulsive in pictures, I don't even want to share pictures I have of happy times with my daughter because I'm so self concious, I hate the thought of the beach and summer because I know I'll be the loser wearing leggings or long pants instead of dresses or shorts because I feel so self conscious. I can't learn to love myself this way so I need to change it, My goal is to lose 60 pounds, but man I'd be happy about 40. I just need help and motivation, I don't have many friends being that I don't really have time for it and my closest friend lives 45 minutes away so planning work outs and keeping in touch is hard with her. I'd really appreciate anyone that would be willing to push me and motivate me to do this, I'd like to have more kids in the future but add another baby to the mix right now and I'll be 500lbs! Thanks for listening! & I'll support and motivate anyone who can do the same for me!