The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size. eating 1700 cals in a day is NOT a binge... its eating at a small deficit for most people... have you spoken to a doctor? i doubt very much that they would turn you away. if you dont feel somfortable goign on your own, speak to a parent or older friend wo coudl go with you. I count something as a binge when I am not hungry and yet eating when I feel out of control. I have spoken to 2 different GP's whom only sent me to do blood tests, none asked the root of the problem or offered to help. I have got my name down for an ED program but the waiting list is a long wait and I need help now ): i understand why you call it a binge, but to a person with normal eating habits, it's not, and you said you wanted normal peoples reactions... if you need the help now, go back to the doctor who referred you and tell them that. It wasn't a doctor who referred me but my psychologist... .... then go back to your psychologist...
The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size. eating 1700 cals in a day is NOT a binge... its eating at a small deficit for most people... have you spoken to a doctor? i doubt very much that they would turn you away. if you dont feel somfortable goign on your own, speak to a parent or older friend wo coudl go with you. I count something as a binge when I am not hungry and yet eating when I feel out of control. I have spoken to 2 different GP's whom only sent me to do blood tests, none asked the root of the problem or offered to help. I have got my name down for an ED program but the waiting list is a long wait and I need help now ): i understand why you call it a binge, but to a person with normal eating habits, it's not, and you said you wanted normal peoples reactions... if you need the help now, go back to the doctor who referred you and tell them that. It wasn't a doctor who referred me but my psychologist...
The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size. eating 1700 cals in a day is NOT a binge... its eating at a small deficit for most people... have you spoken to a doctor? i doubt very much that they would turn you away. if you dont feel somfortable goign on your own, speak to a parent or older friend wo coudl go with you. I count something as a binge when I am not hungry and yet eating when I feel out of control. I have spoken to 2 different GP's whom only sent me to do blood tests, none asked the root of the problem or offered to help. I have got my name down for an ED program but the waiting list is a long wait and I need help now ): i understand why you call it a binge, but to a person with normal eating habits, it's not, and you said you wanted normal peoples reactions... if you need the help now, go back to the doctor who referred you and tell them that.
The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size. eating 1700 cals in a day is NOT a binge... its eating at a small deficit for most people... have you spoken to a doctor? i doubt very much that they would turn you away. if you dont feel somfortable goign on your own, speak to a parent or older friend wo coudl go with you. I count something as a binge when I am not hungry and yet eating when I feel out of control. I have spoken to 2 different GP's whom only sent me to do blood tests, none asked the root of the problem or offered to help. I have got my name down for an ED program but the waiting list is a long wait and I need help now ):
The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size. eating 1700 cals in a day is NOT a binge... its eating at a small deficit for most people... have you spoken to a doctor? i doubt very much that they would turn you away. if you dont feel somfortable goign on your own, speak to a parent or older friend wo coudl go with you.
The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size.
The real reason I posted this is because I know the damage I am doing to my body and I hate it. I want to be able to stop. I wanted to hear what a healthy persons' reaction to a binge that size would be. I honestly really do not want to live like this anymore. I want to change but everywhere I go to ask for help does not take me seriously because of my size. eating 1700 cals in a day is NOT a binge... its eating at a small deficit for most people... have you spoken to a doctor? i doubt very much that they would turn you away. if you dont feel somfortable goign on your own, speak to a parent or older friend wo coudl go with you. I count something as a binge when I am not hungry and yet eating when I feel out of control. I have spoken to 2 different GP's whom only sent me to do blood tests, none asked the root of the problem or offered to help. I have got my name down for an ED program but the waiting list is a long wait and I need help now ): i understand why you call it a binge, but to a person with normal eating habits, it's not, and you said you wanted normal peoples reactions... if you need the help now, go back to the doctor who referred you and tell them that. It wasn't a doctor who referred me but my psychologist... .... then go back to your psychologist... I see her every week?
Have you shown her your diary? Show her this thread? Really opened up about what you are doing?
Have you shown her your diary? Show her this thread? Really opened up about what you are doing? No, no and no...
I don't think I have ever "binged" per se. But that's because i give myself a treat day once a month I am allowed to eat whatever the hell I want. I can typically hit 4000 - 5000 calories on these days. Especially since i go out for a meal and drink a decent amount of wine. That my dear is a binge or rather a treat if it's a conscious decision. 1200 is the absolute minimum the NHS recommends a woman eats to avoid serious health issues. You are eating half of that. Honestly your system probably isn't used to dealing with large amounts of food anymore so I would politely suggest increasing your regular intake to at least 1200. And of course seeing a doctor to help with your eating disorder. You have to be forthright and tell him that you are only eating 600 calories most days + exercise. You need to realize that what you are doing to yourself is every bit as unhealthy as being morbidly obese. You need help.
I don't think I have ever "binged" per se. But that's because i give myself a treat day once a month I am allowed to eat whatever the hell I want. I can typically hit 4000 - 5000 calories on these days. Especially since i go out for a meal and drink a decent amount of wine. That my dear is a binge or rather a treat if it's a conscious decision. 1200 is the absolute minimum the NHS recommends a woman eats to avoid serious health issues. You are eating half of that. Honestly your system probably isn't used to dealing with large amounts of food anymore so I would politely suggest increasing your regular intake to at least 1200. And of course seeing a doctor to help with your eating disorder. You have to be forthright and tell him that you are only eating 600 calories most days + exercise. You need to realize that what you are doing to yourself is every bit as unhealthy as being morbidly obese. You need help. I don't do what I do because I want to. I need to take control of something in my life whilst everything else is spiralling out of control. I also do it so that I can try and lower the self hatred just a tiny bit. I do it because EVERY single time I eat something I have a little voice in my head "Stop eating, fatso, you useless piece of junk," going through my head over and over... it's easier to just not deal with that by not eating than deal with it. Plus then afterwards I feel so much guilt and shame because of what I ate. I don't deserve food.
OP: Please continue working with the professional and if need be, take this thread with you. You are dealing with multiple mental health issues that are intricate in detail and nobody on this forum will be able to appropriately help you. In addition, you will continue to have a difficult time, if you do not use the tools the professionals provide for you. Dealing with a mental health issue is difficult enough, but dealing with multiple issues is over the top and it will be a long road to recovery. However, it is possible. You deserve to feel well in all aspects of your life. It will take a lot of hard work on your part, but you are worth it. Is it possible to get a referral to additional support and therapy programs? (weekly visits with multiple professionals that specialize in specific approaches to treatment?) On another note, I do not know where you live, but I hope this number can help you if you are in crisis. Call 24/7 1-800-273-8255 You can also chat online here:http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
OP: Please continue working with the professional and if need be, take this thread with you. You are dealing with multiple mental health issues that are intricate in detail and nobody on this forum will be able to appropriately help you. In addition, you will continue to have a difficult time, if you do not use the tools the professionals provide for you. Dealing with a mental health issue is difficult enough, but dealing with multiple issues is over the top and it will be a long road to recovery. However, it is possible. You deserve to feel well in all aspects of your life. It will take a lot of hard work on your part, but you are worth it. Is it possible to get a referral to additional support and therapy programs? (weekly visits with multiple professionals that specialize in specific approaches to treatment?) On another note, I do not know where you live, but I hope this number can help you if you are in crisis. Call 24/7 1-800-273-8255 You can also chat online here:http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ Ignore the other comments & focus on this one. You deserve to be happy & healthy in all areas of your life. It will make everything be in balance. Best of luck.
