So disgusted with myself

With a caloric deficit you should be able to lose weight, even with such a sedentary job, but I wonder if there isn't some way to work in a bit of exercise when you aren't drive. (I am assuming here you and your husband ride together and switch off on driving shifts). Maybe you could bring some weights with you in the cab. There routines that you should be able to do while sitting. Anyway you can take an hour pause at a rest stop from time to time to get in a bit of a walk?

I feel the same way - but I found that the negative thoughts about myself and calling myself disgusting weren't the best way to deal with things.

I also started a business a year and a half ago and put working out to the side and would often find myself running on fumes trying to build the business and make money - sleepless nights and stress = over eating and I gained about 40lbs. My BMI is high too.

I just recently went for my annual check up and realized how much I actually weighed. It was frightening. I've been up and down the last 2 weeks. I'm down 7 but then it'll go up 5. It's weird. But my thought is. Do the best I can do each day. Take one day at a time. The work you put in will accumulate over time.

It's just like if you were to save money. If you need $100 and save $1 a day of course it'll seem like forever until you reach $100. But each and every day it will accumulate. You will eventually reach that number it will just take time and discipline. If you fall off the wagon and say spend more that day - then maybe next week you have to compensate and save $2. It's the same with eating/dieting. Don't give up because of one bad day. Don't give up b/c of the scale. It's time that will help. If you stuck to eating well for 30 days and weighed yourself twice on day 1 and 30 you would lose. But if you weight yourself 30 times that month - each day - it will be an up and down up and down up and down ... it plays with your head.

Just stay true to your plan. Eat well daily. Exercise 3x a week at least. And over time the weight will come off.

Tara

are you tracking your calories? Don't assume that because you are eating healthier that fruits and veggies don't have calories. Also keeping that in mind monitor portion control too, because it all adds up. If you are sitting for most of the day then you body isn't going to use as many calories to fuel itself. Try cutting 100-200 calories from your diet and though it will be slow, the weight will come off. I know it's frustrating but I learned the hard way that I would rather lose the weight slowly then lose it quickly and have a lot of health problems because of it. Just stay strong and be patient. In my case it took me 3 years to lose 50 lbs but those 50 lbs haven't even come close to coming back. I've gained a few but nothing near to that. So just remember you want results that are going to last.

1. You don't need to cut anything out of your diet (meat, dairy, carbs, fat, etc.) in order to lose weight. No foods are the "enemy" here, and no foods are inherently bad. Meat didn't make you gain weight, eating at a caloric surplus made you gain weight.

2. You don't need to exercise in order to lose weight. A lot of people are under the impression that exercise burns more calories than it actually does. Exercise is for your health and to make your body look good. Weight loss, however, happens in the kitchen, not in the gym.

3. You didn't mention how long the scale has been stalled or even if it has been stalled at all. Are you gaining weight, not losing, or not losing fast enough for your liking? If you're gaining or maintaining your weight (and not lifting), you're eating too many calories. If you're not losing fast enough, it may be because you're expecting too much. You didn't put on the weight overnight,and you aren't going to lose it overnight.

4. Excuses, cut it out. Your new job did not cause you to gain weight. Like I said, eating at a caloric surplus caused you to gain weight.

5. Kick the word "diet" out of your vocabulary. Diets are temporary. If you want to take off the weight and keep it off, you need to look at this as a new way of eating that will stick even after the extra weight is gone. You shouldn't be doing anything now that you don't plan on doing for the rest of your life. This goes back to #1. If you cut meat just to lose weight and plan to eat meat again once you're thinner, that's a bad idea. Why not just eat real food that you enjoy, even if it's meat and dairy, but eat at a caloric deficit?

6. Are you logging? Are you weighing/measuring all of your food? What is your daily calorie goal? Do you know your TDEE? Opening your diary would help, if there's anything in it. You can't complain that you're not losing weight if you're not doing the most basic step - weighing and logging your food. Guessing isn't going to cut it.

You work long hours and long stretches of days at a tough, stressful job that doesn't leave much opportunity for exercise.

Edit: Reading comprehension fail.

Took me a couple weeks when I started to actually see some weight come off...it was nothing, nothing, nothing and then one morning, 4 lbs gone, just like that. Different for everyone but stick with it. If you're feeling stronger, healthier, more energetic and more daring because of the workouts and eating better, then let that also motivate you even if the weight does not come off at first. If you don;t like meat that;s fine. For me it's a lifestyle change...not a diet. I still have the foods I love, just prepared healthier and sometimes just in smaller portions. I figure if i denied myself, I won't stick to it one bit. I need to be happy with this process.....so I tend to stick with what makes me happy when it comes to food and working out.

I feel your pain. Really, it is very very frustrating at times, when you follow a diet plan, and you don't see much in the way of results. I must have instant gratification or I start to have doubts and lose interest. The good news is that you've been hanging in there for a long time and that tells me you have something a lot of us would fight for....and that is will power. So you have the internal motivation, it just wants to see some results and right now.

You have some facts to gather. Go get a cloth measuring tape and right before you go to bed, measure your waist. Just your waist. Write it down. You're convinced you are exploding, you need to see the numbers...measure your waist once a week at the same time, right before you go to bed. If you are burning more than you are eating you will see it change....even if it is just a 1/4 inch, that is positive progress and they say low and slow is best way.

Good luck!!

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