Kicking the Poor Self Esteem Habit

For many reasons, people end up with poor self esteem issues. We wonder, "How the h#!! did we end up here?" We certainly didn't plan it to come out this way. . I have always struggle with poor self esteem issues, especially about my weight. I reflected on my life, trying to remember when it started and it finally came to me. I remember I was 12 yrs old and back then in school, they used to take field trips to some building where they could record your height and weight. The bus driver that drove us was standing by the scales and when I got on, it registered 150 lbs. He shouted loudly, "D@m^, she weigh more than I do!":noway: I was so embarrassed that I never held my head up again. I was always self conscious about my looks and weight. I did not care about myself. Who knew one small event would have such a powerful impact on my mind set. Don't misunderstand me, he in no way caused it all but, he was a catalyst. I was at a vulnerable and impressionable age (preteen). Believe it or not, kids believe what adults say. Long story short, I lived a miserable life for 44 years.:sad: Last year was a defining moment for me. I realized that I am just as important as the next person. I deserve to be loved and pampered just like everyone else. I always tried to lose weight for someone (man) and some other reason (health), but never for me.

Now, my weight loss journey is just for me and me alone. No one is pushing me or trying to scare me into it. I began for myself. I want to be smaller person. I want to be able to walk with a semi normal gait (2 back surgeries). I wanted to be able to play outside with my grandchildren. Today, I hold my head high and love myself...love myself hard. I am worthy of it and demand it. If you don't love yourself inwardly, you can't change yourself outwardly.

Anybody gone through similar experiences?