A binge eater trying to diet...

That is totally me. I am trying to avoid going to the store by myself so that I don't pull those kind of stunts. I pretty much do the same things that you described.

Sounds like i wrote this topic! )
I'm a RECOVERING binge eater (there is an end in sight for you)
4 months ago, I began my journey here at MFP. Before that, I was binge eating, closet eating, & hiding it all. I would turn down goodies & snacks at work all day & on my way home from work I'd stop at a variety store, buy a big bag of chips, 3 chocolate bars & an ice cream sandwich. I'd eat the 3 chocolate bars & the ice cream on the way home and slip in quietly past the babysitter to hide the chips.

I'd wait until my hubby went to work at night & i'd order a medium pizza & sit infront of the tv eating it all night. I'd bake brownies & eat them all etc, etc, etc. It went on & on & on.

I decided on August 29th that I was going to tap into WHY I was doing it and WHAT i was covering up (mine was an easy find. I knew exactly what i was drowning with food). Binge eating a lot of the time is emotional, you need to tap into why you're eating, what you're hiding from, what you're drowning with food. Once you get a hold of that, it'll become easier to control.

UGH! For me it's when I go out to eat. If I'm at home, I seem to have the will power to stay on plan...but if I go out for dinner (even to a friend's house), I just can't stop eating.

A few weeks ago, I went to a Korean BBQ joint with some friends...and I somehow ended up eating 4.5lbs of beef...and then there were sides, and other dishes on top of it. UGH. I just can't control myself when I'm eating out. I don't know why. So I've learned to not go out to eat (kills the social life a little). Or if I do, I ask that my husband order for me, and not to let me eat anything other then what's on my plate. So aweful

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I agree super hard we should all make a group together....

I do it all the time too... Just yesterday after I submitted my journal my husband left with his brother for a few hours and I ate some candy, chips and dip, drank a pepsi, and even ate some brownies...I threw all the evidence away before he got home...I wasn't upset, mad, overjoyed or anything..I need to quit.. Today is my first day back to work from my vacation and I am hoping it helps me to get back on track..I am tired of this and I need/want to control it...

I am so sorry you are suffering

The book Women Food and God by Geneen Roth is a great read if you suffer from food addiction and binges. I read it in January 2010 and have binged ONCE since. The book was life changing for me.

Here's an excerpt from Oprah.com:

http://www.oprah.com/health/An-Excerpt-from-Geneen-Roths-Women-Food-And-God

YOU CAN OVERCOME THIS ADDICTION!!!

Charmagne

Oh I have been there and done/do that... I am a total closet eater.. I pretty much can't do it anymore since I'm now home.. But when I worked I would always stop on the way home, eat it and hide it..

You absolutely need to find out why you're binge eating -- it won't stop unless you sort that out.

I have learned that my binge eating is layered, with several causes. Not all of them are emotional! When you're tempted to binge, stop and pay attention to what you're feeling, and you'll soon notice patterns.

1. My dad, with whom I had a very up-and-down relationship, expressed his love for us by buying our favorite foods. So food = love for me, in a very tangible way.

2. I get stressed very easily, and food gives you a burst of seratonin, making the stress SEEM to go away (of course, it winds up making it worse). This applies to feeling frustrated/angry as well.

3. When I'm mentally and/or physically exhausted, I also binge -- that's a seratonin thing, too.

4. When I'm getting close to a goal (related to my weight loss, or to any other long-term dream, like my writing), I freak out and binge. I'm not 100% clear on this dynamic yet, but I have a feeling it's about fear. The closer I get to achieving something, the more I worry about how much it will hurt if I fail. That's my best guess for now, anyway.

Hope that gives you some ideas for what's behind your bingeing.

See link - http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/135792-support-for-binge-eating-disorder.

I find it helpful. It helps just knowing you are not alone. It is also important to be patient with yourself because it is hard to manage binge eating.

For me I can excel at many things in life but managing my weight, binge eating is overwhelming at times and can be discourging also. MFP has helped me to not give up even when discouraged or wanting to just throw in the towel. One day at time, one meal at a time.

I am so sorry you are suffering

The book Women Food and God by Geneen Roth is a great read if you suffer from food addiction and binges. I read it in January 2010 and have binged ONCE since. The book was life changing for me.

Here's an excerpt from Oprah.com:

http://www.oprah.com/health/An-Excerpt-from-Geneen-Roths-Women-Food-And-God

YOU CAN OVERCOME THIS ADDICTION!!!

Charmagne

I just read the excerpt and enjoyed it. I was afraid it was going to be all about God and it wasn't. I've read a ton of books about binge eating, addiction, etc and I'll definitely have to add this one to my list. Thanks for the recommendation.