My current issues

Guys, I am posting this because I need help. My anxiety and depression have really taken a toll on me recently and right now I just feel down. The primary concerns are my health and death. I don't know the state of my health right now but I am scared because of family condtions we have: rather it be obesity, high blood pressure, diabetes, back problems, or mental disorders these all have a taken a toll on me and my anxiety makes me think of the worst. Which then comes to death. My grandfather is currently dying, which makes me and my whole family pretty sad. This ties in with my health abit not knowing what I have and then thinking have I made any impact at all on this life? I know I have friends and I have enemies but for the most part I think I made a positive impact. On a positive note, I have started dieting and exercising ever so slightly so I am going to try to get better!

I'm very sorry to hear about your Grandfather. That's really hard for anyone to deal with regardless of the circumstance.
You aren't alone in your depression and anxiety, I suffer from them too.
Cancer and Diabetes run in my family on my dads side, my Moms dad had diabetes but he was the wild card that got it as a fluke thing, so they don't think there's a link. I take after my dad in health, so I knew if I didn't get my metaphorical *kitten* together that I would probably end up like my dad's side of the family and fight my health forever.
I have found exercise is an outlet. When things get tough for me it's usually because I've quit utilizing my outlet, ironically and the first or second session might be a bit tough to get through, but by the end I'm already feeling better and wondering why I quit working out.
I also found a sport I actually like (mountaineering), and I found being out in nature also really helps my emotional and mental health stay stabilized.
You've got a lot of support on here and you're not alone. A lot of us struggle with the same things you do/are!

Edit: Typo Queeeeeeeeeen! *crowns self*

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Everyone dies that is how it works.

While I echo that sentiment on a really, really personal level (I'd be married with children if I hadn't lost a certain someone) I feel that was a bit blunt for someone that is clearly in one of the stages of grief right now.

I find when I am anxious or depressed (or both) the best medicine is exercise. Rhythmic exercise (like walking) works really well and gives me time to sort through my feelings because I don't have to think about how to walk.

This will sound trite, but that's not how it's intended. You don't live in a vacuum. You impact the world around you every time you inhale and exhale. You don't need to go out and change the world. You can, if that's what your heart desires, but just being you is enough.

thanks everyone, its just very hard right now because he hasn't passed away yet but you know he is close and my sleep right two it is really affecting my sleep right now

I've never been able to prepare for the passing of a loved one, so I'm not sure if this will help or not, but my best friend was in the same situation with her Grandmother. She took the time left with her to come to terms with what was happening and when her Grandmother finally did pass away my best friend found that while she misses her a lot, that the grief related to the actual passing was much, much less than she thought it was going to be.

Everyone processed and handles grief differently though. Like I said I'm not sure what your situation is, but perhaps looking at it in a different light (or trying to) would help you move forward into the healthy new life you want? Your Grandfather would want that for you, you want that for you, your family wants that for you. You have the right to grieve and be a mess, Lord knows I am from time to time, you just need to try and not let it dictate your life. He wouldn't want that, right?
My dad's cancer diagnosis came as a shock to all of us but he basically ordered all of us to go about our business and continue with our day to day while he went through treatment because he didn't want anyone else to have to reevaluate their lives just because he was being forced to reevaluate his.

To quote a wonderful source...

"After all, to the well-organised mind, death is but the next great adventure."
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone

"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. (I love Harry Potter!)

Can you go for a check-up? Nothing chases away the "what-ifs" like a clean bill of health from a trusted doctor. I fight with anxiety, too. Something like an illness in someone close to me always jacks it up.

Guys, I am posting this because I need help. My anxiety and depression have really taken a toll on me recently and right now I just feel down. The primary concerns are my health and death. I don't know the state of my health right now but I am scared because of family condtions we have: rather it be obesity, high blood pressure, diabetes, back problems, or mental disorders these all have a taken a toll on me and my anxiety makes me think of the worst. Which then comes to death. My grandfather is currently dying, which makes me and my whole family pretty sad. This ties in with my health abit not knowing what I have and then thinking have I made any impact at all on this life? I know I have friends and I have enemies but for the most part I think I made a positive impact. On a positive note, I have started dieting and exercising ever so slightly so I am going to try to get better!

I personally suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder, specifically regarding my health, so I know what it's like first hand.

I would highly recommend scheduling an appointment with your primary care physician for an annual physical. This should put your mind at ease. Let them know you are dealing with anxiety/depression. Be upfront. They may or may not refer you to a psychiatrist.

Worrying about your health can actually make physical symptoms appear and feel very real. I suggest buying the book "It's Not All in Your Head" from Amazon. It talks about how worrying about your health can actually make you sick. The mind is a very powerful thing.

My family's medical history is not great. My paternal grandpa passed away from multiple sclerosis. My paternal grandma is a breast cancer survivor. My maternal grandma is a colon cancer and skin cancer survivor. She also has mitral valve prolapse and had open heart surgery to replace her mitral valve. My maternal aunt had a stroke at 30 years old. She has mitral valve prolapse as well. My maternal grandpa had colon, kidney, and pancreatic cancer. He passed away last Father's Day five months after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Losing my grandpa was one of the hardest things I've had to face besides losing my brother. I watched him wither away physically, mentally, and emotionally. It was very heartbreaking.

I'm not even 21 years old and I have a number of health problems… I was diagnosed with skin cancer when I was a sophomore in high school. I had surgery to remove 3 cancerous moles on my back. I have supraventricular tachycardia, POTS, and a heart murmur. I have a number of endocrine disorders as well (luckily no diabetes though). I had a colon cancer scare recently. A mass was detected on my colon during a CT scan. I had to have a colonoscopy to see what it was. Fortunately it was only a cyst (and was not cancerous) that they removed laparoscopically.

Just know that you are not alone. You've come to the right place to take control of your life. Exercise is the most underused antidepressant. When you exercise, endorphins are released which increase serotonin levels. With the weather getting nicer, take a walk. Get fresh air. I personally love being outside in nature. It's very calming.

I am very sorry to hear about your grandfather. The best thing you can do right now is spend his last days with him. Hold his hand, talk to him. I don't know if he is sick but if he is and he is suffering, let him know it is okay to go. Sometimes someone who is actively dying needs to hear this from their loved ones. They need to know that they will be okay when they go. In fact, it wasn't until my grandma told my grandpa that it was okay for him to give up and that she'd be okay once he was gone, that he passed away. He passed away that night actually.

Guys, I am posting this because I need help. My anxiety and depression have really taken a toll on me recently and right now I just feel down. The primary concerns are my health and death. I don't know the state of my health right now but I am scared because of family condtions we have: rather it be obesity, high blood pressure, diabetes, back problems, or mental disorders these all have a taken a toll on me and my anxiety makes me think of the worst. Which then comes to death. My grandfather is currently dying, which makes me and my whole family pretty sad. This ties in with my health abit not knowing what I have and then thinking have I made any impact at all on this life? I know I have friends and I have enemies but for the most part I think I made a positive impact. On a positive note, I have started dieting and exercising ever so slightly so I am going to try to get better!

I'm sorry about your Grandfather. I understand what you mean. I suffer from depression and anxiety as well. And diabetes and cancer runs in my family. Talk to your doctor and start making changes today. It's never too late to start getting as healthy as possible.