Trying to find that motivation and support

2010 was a very stressful year for me in many ways. I was pushed to my limits emotionally and physically, and became very down on life. And I am now feeling and seeing the results, and not only is it embarrassing, but difficult for me to stand. I started last year wanting to make a change in my physical health, and my boyfriend at the time was supportive for a very short time. I began the last leg of my teaching licensure, student teaching. Well this was five days a week, just like a job, except, no pay. So I had to keep my job as a 911 dispatcher. I worked nights on the weekends. Two days a week, Monday and Friday I was pulling double duty with very little sleep. This began my decline, I tried to eat healthy and exercise, but found it too exhausting on myself. It was too easy to just not exercise and sleep and relax, and much easier to grab something like fast food or an easy quick fix for a meal. I found myself snacking on foods I shouldn't have been. Not only this I found that my partner no longer cared and seemed more and more distant. Shortly after i finished I was dealt a life changing blow after 6 years, and was left single, and without anything but my best friend and family. My weight declined because I just stopped eating didnt care anymore...realizing I couldn't do this, I tried to get back on the horse so to speak and rebuild my life. Its been hard, very hard. I have found its hard to work out without a partner anymore, no one to motivate me and push me to try harder. Eating has been my other downfall, dinner, what reason was there to cook dinner anymore, it was easier to just grab something on the way home. The holidays depressed me...and so on and so forth.

My friend has got me started on this site, and I want to change, but still needing motivation and support. I want to be healthy again. So if you would like to, feel free to add me as a friend.