Hello!

SusieFerret
SusieFerret Posts: 6
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So, my first post, as an introductory thing. I suppose I could give some backstory to why I joined, and what I want to achieve.

I recently stepped on the scales, after my partner expressed concern for my health, and boy, was I surprised at what I saw! I haven't told anyone how much I weighed, because I feel somewhat ashamed. I look to people I know, and see that they cannot possibly weigh as much as I do. I am somewhat comfortable about the way I look, as in, I am comfortable in my own skin... Yet I feel this sadness when out shopping, and see how large trousers that would fit me look on the rack. I know I am not healthy at my current weight, and I am terrified that someone will look at me and say: "Wow, you gained a lot of weight since I last saw you!" I want to be healthy, look alright and fit into clothes I like.

What I hope to achieve? A healthier lifestyle, and a healthier attitude to food. I thrive when eating second and third helpings, and when I cook for myself and others... It takes so much space in my life. Oddly, it seems like dieting or watching what I eat doesn't help on that score, but I can't really tell, as I have not tried for any significant length of time.

That's me. Thanks for reading :)

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  • twinkylafleur
    twinkylafleur Posts: 9
    Hi Susie!

    I've been also in the same predicament. I started losing weight two years ago on this site, lost 20lbs, and started feeling great about myself again, and then, as it sometimes does, life happened and I all of a sudden had other things to worry about. The massive amounts of worrying helped to get me in a lifestyle that wasn't healthy for me and my weight skyrocketed to adding 30 more lbs on. Welp, I finally got tired of it, decided I was important enough to work on myself and be how I want to be and feel how I want to feel about myself. Two years later, I'm back on here. I started back on my weight loss mid March of this year, so it's been about a month and a half. So far, I've lost 17lbs! Now, at first I was depressed and ashamed of how I was...I was very ashamed of how I let myself go..not necessarily how others saw me, but just disappointed in myself. That's what jolted me to begin my weightloss track this time though. So, after the first 2.5 weeks, I really lost a lot of weight...probably mostly water, but still it was enough to really cheer me up. I lost 10lbs in the first 3 weeks! I look back at my original weight and I'm not ashamed at ALL of how I was. I'm seriously proud of myself for taking my health into my own hands and it has really empowered me.

    There have been some times where my weight, in the last 2 months has jumped back up a few pounds....always scary because you don't know what's going on. However, being a female, the hormones tend to help retain water at certain points, and I've come to realize that I, as well as many others, tend to fluctuate within about 5lbs every so often because of natural processes. Don't let these times scare you or get you to lose motivation or feel bad about yourself, or make you feel you're not doing something right. I've learned to pretty much stay off of the scale as much as possible, especially the week leading up to hormonal changes and the week following them. :)

    Don't be ashamed of who you are right now...after a few weeks...you'll look back and be seriously proud of what you accomplished on your own and because you made the change happen :)
  • SusieFerret
    SusieFerret Posts: 6
    Hello there!

    Thank you so much for posting this; it gives me hope and strength for the future!

    You seem very happy with who you are, and I should be too, as you said; not be ashamed for who I am now.

    Thanks again for posting this!

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