Am I Crazy?

Counseling might be a great idea - one sentence stuck out to me: "I think this whole process has had an effect on me mentally and emotionally. I think because I can't keep the weight off it has begun to drain me."

This tells me that you're having trouble managing it on your own (because it's draining you) and it's affecting you mentally and emotionally. There's nothing wrong with using a counselor/therapist as another tool in your journey. I've been seeing one for over a year, and she's been a great help.

If you have health insurance, I'd start there- they should have some that are covered by your plan if it's a network type plan. If not, you might find out what mental health clinics your city offers - many have sliding scale fees for people who don't have insurance. You can ask your regular doctor for a reference if you feel comfortable doing so. I looked at some of the counselors on my insurance plan and googled names to find out more about them until I found one who looked like she would mesh well with my needs. Don't be afraid to look for a new counselor if you start seeing one and it turns out that it's just not working out. Not all therapists/counselors work for all patients. Also, don't be afraid to look for someone who isn't a psychiatrist or psychologist - I see a licensed clinicial social worker (she has a Master's Degree) and she is great to work with.

You're not crazy!!! Although I am not a professional, I strongly believe that it is 100% normal to have these feelings... Weight is a very touchy subject and wether you have 5 lbs to lose or 105 lbs to lose we struggle mentally as humans with it... I do not believe that ANYONE in our lives has the right to tell us we have weight to lose, if we are overweight, 9 out of 10 times, we know it... and the LAST thing we need is others telling us what we already know... I aslo believe that there are certain circumstances where we need to be told, however, that is what our doctors are for....
I know from experience that being told you have a few extra pounds to lose is a hard thing to hear, especially when it comes from a loved one or someone you thought you could trust not to hurt your feelings, unfotunately I also think that the reason we are being told, is because they love us THAT much....
Good Luck!!! And just remember that there are people here for support and encouragement!!!

First of all welcome to MFP. I personally have heard this same plea many times before. First of all, these are people that have never dealt with weight issues and obviously have no respect for your feelings. So no I don't think you need counseling ( yet :-))

FYI - this is a rather grand assumption that isn't necessarily true. My therapist used to be quite overweight and she smoked - she is now at a healthy weight and is a non-smoker. You CAN find good counselors out there who can be very valuable aids in the process of losing weight. Even if the therapist doesn't personally have an experience with losing a lot of weight, he or she can still be good to work with - it all depends on the therapist.

Counselors/therapists serve a great function in providing a safe place outside of your everyday life where you can explore worries/concerns/problems and they can offer up perspectives that you may not have thought of and serve as a sounding board for exploring issues that need to be explored. They're trained in helping people help themselves in ways that the general population is not. (At least the good counselors do this.)

You don't need counselling you just need to learn to love yourself.

You would be surprised how many people don't know how to love themselves. It isn't as simple as "Just Do It". Most of the characteristics our society has come to accept as "normal" are actually signs of distrust, unprocessed emotions, defensive mechanisms and repressed trauma.

Telling someone that they "just need to learn to love yourself" but that they don't need counseling is kind of like telling a child to learn to read by handing them a Tolstoy novel and not providing any guidance. A therapist is a trained guide who can help people navigate and process their mechanisms and residual emotions.

If a therapist is outside of a person's financial means, there are some excellent books to get started. But a therapist is ideal because they have worked with people with similar problems and know how to get you where you want to be.