Staying Motivated When Alone

I think one of the hardest ways to lose a lot of weight is when you are alone. When you have nothing to look forward to each day things can get rather dreary and bleak. I have been alone for the last 10 years, mainly because I couldn't stand to look at myself so I figured why would anyone else want to look. For lack of a better word I considered myself a monster. Too big and ugly for anyone to care. It was a horrible cycle of self abuse that tanked any chance for me to get better.

I think everyone here dealing with a lot of weight to lose reaches that rock bottom moment when they realize that they have to do something, and often you get going and things start out great. You lose some weight and start to feel better, but your mind doesn't want to give up its old ways. You still look at yourself and wonder if you can really do it and if it is gonna be worth it. It's hard to get out of that mindset when a goal seems so far away. So you quit, and 12 months later you are sitting around and realize that if you just stuck with it until today that you would be in a much better position. I could have been 100 pounds down by now you may say to yourself. The really bad part is that this makes you feel even worse and spiral even more into your cycle.

I know this cycle because I have lived it over and over again and never thought I would be able to break free from it. I have and I plan to stay far away from that cycle moving forward because I finally decided to reach out and get help for the things that were beyond my control. Being alone and not being able to vent or be around anyone else can trigger bad emotions and keep you from getting to where you want to be in life. You can enter a numbness where everything around you no longer elicits a proper response.

So please if you feel this way find someone or something to help you. Something to get you through the days that will most likely cause you to derail. I have found my method of coping through the help and support of the people on these forums. I truly appreciate all the help and support that they have given me over the last year. Don't try and do it alone, you are setting yourself up to fail.Now I am not saying you can't do it alone, but you are far more likely to succeed when you get help. And I know how scary help can be, putting yourself out there when you are so alone and hate yourself so much is absolutely frightening. But if you do I promise that you will find a lot of positive and encouraging people who only want to see you happy and healthy.

There will be embarrassing moments, ones that will make you want to throw yourself out a window, but just remember the more you get hurt and the more pain you feel overcoming your own mental handicaps the better its gonna feel once you get to where you want to be in life. Don't settle being alone, do something about it or you may never see the other end of your goal.

I am not gonna lie and say that the voice inside my head has gone away and I can look at myself as a human being and not a monster. I am still working on that and it's a daily struggle to get past. But I know I am far better then I was a year ago. All because I decided to say f**k it and dive head first into getting help. It has made everything so much easier and a year and a half from now when I hit my goal weight I know that voice will be gone...for good.

Suck it up and ask for help if you need it, so many people die because they are too scared and unwilling to admit things have gotten out of control. If you feel this way reach out to someone, even a stranger here on MFP can help more then you would imagine.

Have a nice day!