Jumping on Board - it's time to be accountable

Hello all - I’m a recently turned 40 YO married mother of two who has gained 20lbs since last October - but have about 35-40 pounds I would like to lose. A little about myself and my health/weight history.... After my 2nd baby - (8 years ago) I had no problem losing all the baby weight. Over time, even though I was active (P90X, boot camp, Jillian Michaels videos’ etc) my mentality of "if you work out that means a free for all when it came to eating/drinking whatever you want, whenever you want. With that, came an extra 15-20 lbs.

In the last year I've been through a lot of change in my life that's been stressful. We've adjusted to my husband losing his job, he’s opened a business out of the home, I've gotten a promotion work which is much more stressful and has demanding hours/workload, we've sold our house and moved into a new house and are currently living in it while it's being remodeled. < Perhaps sometime soon I will actually get my asher/dryer back and perhaps sometime in this lifetime get to get all my kitchen stuff that is out of storage in a functioning kitchen and get organized>.

All of this being said, I’ve gained ANOTHER 20 pounds since just last October – Some due to depression, some due to stress and comfort eating, but most of that is due to the fact that I'd continued to eat and drink whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted yet have become lazy on the exercise home front and would rather just lay around because I'm mentally exhausted and too stressed to "do anything" let alone try and "cook" anything.

It was a true eye opener a few weeks ago when I had some time to reconcile a few months of our bills that I had boxed up and realized the amount of money we were spending each month "eating out" ....you know, because it's convenient <nice excuse huh?>...... the dollar amount that I saw just SHOCKED me. It was amazing to see how much it actually cost me to get fat. No wonder I only have two pairs of work pants that fit me anymore, that I don't want to be in any pictures, that what clothes I do have I am stuffed into and uncomfortable and no wonder I feel lethargic and run down all the time. I'm happy I've stumbled upon this site, logging my food and exercise has been helpful - even logging the "bad stuff".... has been a huge eye-opener. I look forward to lurking around here each day and seeing the support and advice given so if anyone feels like being an accountability buddy - feel free to send me an invite. Thanks for reading my rant. Have a happy, healthy and accountable Tuesday everyone!