Hi, I am new to the site, but not new to dieting!

Allow me to introduce myself. I am The Dieting Diva. I was a tall skinny teenager, almost praying that I would get a few curves. Well I guess that prayer was answered and in abundance. In college after all night study parties, and lots of diet coke, and breaking up with a boyfriend, I was around 20 pounds overweight, and I thought the world had come to an end. I walked around with my head down, and felt like I was repulsive. Even when I was ready to try to meet a few men, I seemed to scared them all away with my insecurities. I think it was the lack of confidence more than the weight. When I look back at pictures, I really looked nice - not skinny - but nice. What's wrong with hips anyway? I think being so critical of myself is what started me on a 25 year journey of yo-yo dieting. Just like clock work, when I lost the weight, men that ignored me started to notice me, and I met my husband. For the first ten years, even with having four babies, I don't think I was ever more than 30 pounds overweight. I struggled with food all the time and had it reasonably under control. I always thought I was fat, even when I wasn't. I had an abusive husband that put me down and made me feel like I was unattractive and unworthy. When I left him I made it my goal that I would eat everything that wasn't nailed down, because I was single, and no one had any right to put me down. I was true to my word and at one point I was over 100 pounds overweight. I didn't really care, because I had nice hair, nice clothes, and a smile on my face. I didn't even feel that I looked bad, because I was older and I didn't want to look like Barbie, or try to catch a new boyfriend. It was just about me and I felt fine with it. After several years of that, I began to get my life together and I realized something important. I really did care, and I wanted to be smaller and buy pretty clothes, and so I began another process of yo-yo dieting. I had some success, and I kept gaining it back. This time I am trying to do it right, and focus on a long term goal of healthy food, and exercise. My daughter helped me to find this app for my blackberry. My daughter, niece and I are doing this together. We are starting a Dieting Diva Club, and I am even writing a book about our progress, including funny pictures. I am 45, my niece is 18, and my daughter is 20. If you can relate to any of this, I would love to hear a comment! It's nice to meet you all!