New Girl

I guess I am taking my first step by joining this group. I am fat, depressed and sick of me. I didn't have a weight problem until I started taking anti depressants. I have a family history of depression. My whole life has been a struggle starting with the death of my mom when I was 9 years old. I was shoved from pillar to post, not allowed to see my family. Name the abuse and I have suffered from it. Next month I will be married 32 years to a man that has shamed me for as long as I can remember. I stay because that's all I know.

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  • zodan1976
    zodan1976 Posts: 30 Member
    I have just said a prayer for you......with that said I am going to be brutally honest with you........I don't know your whole life story but I do know this.....you are in an unhealthy mode right now of feeling sorry for yourself. You will not succeed with your goals while in this mode......I know from first hand experience. Everyone's life story is different and theres always someone out there who has a more worst one than us......But hun, you have to let it go, you have to reach deep inside of yourself and find that "thing" and stand up and say "NO MORE!!" The loss of a parents is horrendous......but you have to think "would your mom be happy with how you are beating up on yourself right now???" and as far as your husband?????? My mom and dad got divorced after 30 years of marriage......my mom is the most self destructive person I know.....(she tried to kill herself over my dad, I who was 23 at the time, had to call the cops and have them commit her to a psyche ward) there's a whole lot more to that story but anyways....the point I'm trying to make here is if she can make it so can you!!!!!

    Find someone (anyone) to talk to......tell them EVERYTHING in your heart (good, bad, and the ugly) cure yourself of this disease and live life to the fullest. Stop living in the past. (the past made you who you are today.....but the past doesn't define who you will become.....

    I see your profile pic and you are beautiful. Look in the mirror and see that!! God doesn't make the mistakes.

    If you want friend request me.........