Back again, time to restart!

Hello Everyone! I have been apart of MFP (and not updated my profile) for a long time. I've had quite the success, having lost about 140lbs since joining. Well, I've gained. I got pregnant at the end of 2012/beginning of 2013 with twins. Biggest blessing of my life. Due to medical issues with the twins while pregnant, I had to stop working out. I had a csection with them and couldn't work out for a while after them. I did meet with my trainer and started losing weight afterwards, but mother's guilt caught up to me and I stopped.. and I stopped watching what I was eating. I'm only down now about -113lbs total from my heaviest weight. Sad that I'm going to have to lose all that weight again. Such is life. I know I did this to myself.

The net is that I've gained weight, I've lost muscle, and I feel/look terrible. I've also gotten away from the healthy life style I was living that included daily gym trips or some sort of exercise and super healthy, clean eating. I have finally stopped breastfeeding (10 months with twins!), and am ready to reclaim my body! My gym was bought out and since having closed down, I have not gone to the new, much bigger gym (scary!?). Today is the day. I need friends that will motivate me, that will help me stay accountable, and understand the life of a mother, who works full time, and needs to change her life.

Here are some photos that I took just now (in the work bathroom, don't judge me!):



Hopefully, I'll get some new friends from this! The friends I have, like me, have seemed to drift away from MFP and aren't present or as active as they once were. I am so excited and determined to do this again! Let's go!