Newbie looking for friendly support to help me get fit :)

Hey there Everyone!

My name is Daniel. I just joined like 10 minutes ago and figured I would introduce myself into this vast community and see where it takes me. I am interested in making friends and finding support groups for overweight people who find themselves addicted to particular types of foods.

Even when I was a child I was a picky eater and because of this I have grown into a picky eater as an adult. I always wanted to eat the pizza, or microwaveable foods, processed garbage, deep fried anything and chase it all with sugary sodas or sugary juices like Kool-Aid. I've grown into a obese person at 315Lbs. I am no longer comfortable in my own body. I've began to notice that simple tasks like bending over, or kneeling are causing me pain and my joints are sore all the time as well. Buying clothes at the mall is pretty much a waste of time. No one carries a 40 waist and a 3-4XL shirt. I end up having to special order clothes in and most of the time that is an additional cost. I tell myself almost every time I eat some processed garbage food - that tastes amazingly good I may add - that this will be the death of me. But I always find myself going back to the easy to buy, easy to afford, and delicious foods that are high in sodium, carbs and all those bad chemicals that will lead me to an early grave anyways!

I can admit it! I am an ADDICT to high fat foods. But this past 4 days I have been on a diet. Well trying to be on one that is. I've been replacing my snack foods with nothing at all and sticking to my meals only, and even those I've cut my portions down to 1/3 of what I used to eat. But then around 7-8 at night I get hungry and I have a VERY hard time controlling myself. So far I've been good and avoided the temptations to cheat. But it's so easy to just hop in the truck, drive to 7/11 and grad that big-*kitten* bag of Doritos that I've been craving. And if I went to the store, I'd eat the whole bag too. I know that once I relapse into junk food again, i'll feast on it until I am completely full. I keep telling myself No No No. But the Devil is in my ear saying Yes Yes Yes just one snack. I am looking for support... People that I can talk to about this. Maybe someone who has dealt with something similar, or knows how addiction affects the mind. Especially when they're abusing something as widely available as food. I quit smoking 4 years ago, and that was easy compared to this!

I am uncomfortable even removing my shirt around people. Life is not meant to be lived this way. I should not be ashamed.