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I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch ... we all go through these things. Ups and downs happen. You can do this ... you did it before and you can do it again. Screw the scale ... you're eating better and getting exercise. I'm sure you'll get a lot of inspiration and motovation from all kinds of MFP people who have been exactly where you are right now. My thoughts are with you my friend. Join in with a group or two. I couldn't do this without the help from all the friends I got here through this site.

First you got it out of your system of ventin' ... I'm also at a stand still...Perhaps its 'time of the month' weight...I chalkin' it up for myself...Yes, your allowed to get yourself down and have bad times, we all do. We'd be lyin' if losin' weight was a walk in the park...Keep your head up, make a note of what type of pizza you had - the crust, meat & cheese could have been the factor...Drink some water to flush out the nastys...or try hot green tea after a meal. My coach swears by this....Don't give up...today's another day to look forward into eatin' and drinkin' water...Keep smilin' - you're a beautiful wonderful person xo

Just like erickirb said it is probably water retention. The more sodium you have the more water you are going to store. A good example would be if you go out for Chinese food and usually and hour later finger are swollen, socks are tight, Its the sodium. Stay positive, you have a wonderful online community to help you through it !

Wow, that's intense. I think you need to work on your inner dialog a bit. It was hard to read your post and I'm sure you feel worse than you could actually wrote. Geez! Umm, I would think you should start with some quiet time. If your a Christian it would be devotions. Start focusing on the gifts in your life. The things that keep you going, the things that encourage you. Everyone has something wonderful in their life. You need to think about it really hard. Then, it's time to dust yourself off. "A wise man falls seven times but rises up eight." Find something that is fun and gets you moving, and start eating clean (avoid as much processed stuff as you can). And just forget the rest really. You don't want what you eat to consume your life, which is what it sounds like. Just like an anorexic is always thinking about what and how much they eat, it happens to us heavier folks too. But, LIFE is not about food. It's about living. I don't know if you love your job, or what it is that you do love. But, it's time to really get up and live a bit. Eating the hurt and boredom away isn't living. And no, two pieces of pizza and chocolate shouldn't wreck your life. But, sometimes you will have to say no so that you can say yes at another time. :flowerforyou: