I giving up vegan diet

mainly eat pasta, bread, mock meats, not very much vegetables, rice & beans, hemp oil, cashews

I found that this diet is not for me anymore, everything is just bland now

I really want to see some muscle gains I'm fat with very little muscle, I take a serving of sun warrior protein blend for weights.

I want to balance things out after 2 years vegan

There is your issue then.
You need to eat whole grains, wholemeal pasta and bread not white junk. Mock meats are a great source of protein so if you're eating a lot of them you're definitely not protein deficient.
You need to eat a wide variety of vegetables, and rice and beans doesn't have to be bland and boring!
Try a chickpea and spinach curry with brown rice, or basmati if you don't like brown rice.

The only reason I see to adhere to a vegan diet is because of religious reasons or reasons of conscience (guilt about using animal products, etc).

Animal meat and animal products provide a lot of nutrients and energy...and it is more difficult to get adequate protein without any animal products whatsoever.

No it's really not. There are many great sources of protein that aren't animal derived. Anyone should be eating a well planned and balanced diet whether vegan or not. With not even careful planning it's easy to eat enough protein on a vegan diet. OP is eating mock meats, these have almost as much protein as meat. A sweet potato and bean curry with rice is over 20g of protein a serving, and the daily recommended amount is only roughly 40-50g depending on person and exercise levels.

I've been vegan for two years now, more and more I only eat carbohydrates in my diet and I feel like going back to a regular balanced diet. It's hard for me to think about eating meat again, but I need lots of protein and nutrients, and this week I went on a trail and I got winded halfway up almost passed out on the top!. My energy is at an all time low and my weight is rising which is not like me at all..

I feel like I lost myself by being vegan

I've been a Vegan for 15 years never had any problems getting protein or a balanced diet. In fact it's pretty difficult not to get enough protein. If you want to stop being a Vegan that's your choice but don't blame the diet there is no reason why a Vegan diet is not balanced other than your own choices. It's pretty easy in reality to have a balanced Vegan diet it's your choice to make it difficult

OP, you look like you need a bit of meat on your bones. Seriously.

And you're getting winded and almost fainting in response to some hiking at the age of 21?

If ethical reasons don't hinder you and you're serious about eating animal protein again, then:

1) Go with a foot long meatball sub.

2) Every day.

3) For a year.

4) And enjoy the feel and the look of being a healthy, strong early 20 something year old man again. :drinker:

I've always struggled with putting on muscle my entire life, I am putting lots of effort into it more than ever now!
I have a small stomach so I wouldn't be able to cram a foot long sub

Sounds like you need to stretch out your stomach then. The only way you're going to build some muscle is to eat a calorie surplus and lift the *kitten* out of everything.

Eat up my friend. Whether it's vegan, paleo, vegetarian, regular food, whatever. But you need to get your protein in some way or another.